Mistakes Like This

Tear In My Heart

3 months later

Riannis POV

The months passed by and the girls and I worked a lot since we got even more famous. We won out first MNET Asian Music Award and now we are nominated for an Asian Music Award which makes us so proud since we worked so hard for it.

Yuna released her first own song and got a lot of positive feedback and the media really loves her music and I feel happy for her.

Alaia and I started writing our own rap songs for Korean underground rapper and singer which was a great way to live our passion.

The life in the band was exciting but we changed a lot.

Alaia was so happy in her relationship to Jimin but on the other hand she got so insecure. She was always our confident leader, just a grown woman who was always proud to be who she was but she felt so much pressure since her relationship was a official thing and everybody talked about it. She started to care way too much about what others think of her and she also lost a lot of weight.

Maybe it was the stress of being a Kpop idol but I'm sure it was also because of her relationship.

I talked to her a lot about her changed behaviour in the last months but she didn't really payed attention to what I said and since she was happy with Jimin I guess everything's fine, right?

Yuna was finally over her break up with Tae and moved on. I guess she was too busy with her solo plans to care about relationships at all.

But after all I was glad that the mood in the band got better and better and Yuna and I were finally able to talk to each other.

Anyway, the last three months were not easy for me since Yoongi and I decided to take a break. The night he told me about the break I cried for hours and nights after it.

It broke my heart that he need time to think about our love. That he wasn't sure anymore if he loves me destroyed my entire world since I loved him so much.

I always had a crush on him and as we finally came closer to each other which made me so happy but I hated myself for having feelings for Tae.

But now I feel a bit better and I'm no longer sad or hurt. I accept the fact that Suga needs time to think about his feelings. We are still talking to each other but it's no longer the same. He changed a bit and I changed too.

I noticed that he met up with other girls and flirted with them which made jealous at the beginning but now I think it's okay since I think our relationship if I can still call this a realtionship is over. We are not even kissing each other anymore, no kisses, no touches, just small talk.

Don't get me wrong I still feel something for Suga and yeah it kinda hurts so see him with other girls but I don't want to forbid him something.

I never planned on having feelings for tae but feelings can't be controlled and that was a huge problem for me.

Maybe it was the kiss in the one night we played truth or dare or maybe it was always there and I didn't noticed it.

But I can tell that there was somehing between Tae and me that was way too strong to deny it.

Tae and I spend a lot time together the last few months since he understood how I felt after the thing with Suga. He is always listening to me when I need him but we also spend a lot of time to go to the cinema or do other random stuff.

We aren't really together since it's more like a really close friendship but sometimes I wish we were.

And I sometimes think that Taehyung knows me better than Yoongi.