The Crush::Joshler

.:Chapter One:The Crush:.

I walk over to Tyler anxious, confused on what he is trying to do. "Hey."

Tyler looks at me, confused; "What are you doing here Josh? We must get prepared for the show."

    I fiddled with my fingers. "I have to tell you something, Tyler. Something important." I feel nervous but at the same time curious, does he find me the way I find him? Tyler looks at me confused and curious. I realize that telling him how I feel right before the show could distract the both of us... I mean, he distracts me enough. "I just want to say that...." I decide to hide my emotions and to not put Tyler more nervous than he already is, "There is a lot of people here tonight. I am really nervous." Tyler looks at me knowing that something was abnormal about how I was talking to him. I grab my drum sticks and head back to my dressing room to finish getting ready, the show is only in a couple minutes. I hope I didn't act too weird or anything... I brace myself to go on stage, and push aside these thoughts for later.

    The show starts and I try to keep focus, but how can I focus having Tyler just in front of me? Damn..... I found myself looking at Tyler's ass, and damn that ass. Suddenly, Tyler was looking at me, I don't understand why.

     He stops singing and comes closer. "Josh? Are you okay?" What? Why was he asking.

     "Yes. Why?" I ask, wondering what is going on.

"Maybe because you stopped playing your drums half way through the song." He looks concerned and confused.

Shit. "Yeah I'm fine" The crowd looks confused and sound a bit worried.

Tyler talks back into the mic sounding the same, "Okay guys I have to do something and It's important I promise you I wouldn't be wasting your time if it wasn't, I'll make it up to you guys" Tyler hands the mic over to a security guard and pulls me backstage. I suddenly get really nervous. I was never the most comfortable being in front of large crowds, especially performing. Now I messed up... "Josh!" I realize Tyler has been trying to talk to me... God, I'm so distracted!

Tyler takes me to the dressing room. "What is happening Josh?"

Shit. What should I say? "Nothing.......im fine."

Josh grabs me; "Come on, Josh. You never do that. It is not normal. Something is going on. What is it? Don't you trust me?"

Damn, he knows how to make me talk. "Of course I trust you, it's nothing, I promise it won't happen again."

"Okay I see" Tyler says in an anxious tone." Well let's get back to the concert the fans are waiting" Tyler then walked out the dressing room onto the stage. I might as well go onto the stage with Tyler I don't want the fans to be disappointed.

    After a couple songs and my drum solo, the time went by fast, but I was anxious what Tyler would say after our tour, this is our last city. Now It's the end of the show, we're just doing our final song. Tyler looks so hot up there, but I can't get distracted it's our last song. I try so hard not to look at him but I can't resist. The last song starts and I focus on my drums and the fans. Do it for them, I think. They're the ones who got us here. I motivate myself to play the last song the best I can, and it's a success. It makes me happy to see everyone else looking so happy. I see Tyler, and he looks at me. He has a smile on his face that I never want to forget.

    The show finishes and I go to my dressing room. I take my T-shirt off as I notice the door opened. It was Tyler. My face went red like a tomato. "What are you doing here?!"

he laughed "What? I can't visit my best friend's dressing room?" I (still shirtless) sit on the couch and ignore Tyler. He looked worried. "Whats going on, Josh?" 

That surprises me "What?"

"Come on... I now something is going on. You did it terribly back there" that hurt "but you know you can tell me if something is wrong" even when he is angry, he looks damn cute.

"Yeah I Know" I said in a very quiet tone.

    "So Are you going to tell me or not?" Tyler Asked in a curious tone.

"What do you want me to tell you if there is nothing to tell" I said while putting my head up to look at Tyler. Damn Tyler looked hot as fuck when he was serious.

    Tyler starts to walk away, disappointed. I can't stand when he's disappointed, it breaks my heart. "Wait" I say as soon as he's about to open the door. Shit, now I have to tell him. "Tyler....I like you, and not like friend like... like... I have... feelings, fo-" he cuts me off, I was never too good with my words at times like this.

Tyler has a look on his face I can't describe.  "Wait, wait wait, slow down Josh... I just.. want to make sure I'm understanding what you're saying."  He didn't seem to have anything else to say.. Now the worrying questions of what he'll think and how he'll react are coming back to me. "Josh are you serious? Are you really telling me this?" Tyler sounding mad, I storm out of the dressing room onto our tour bus that was departing in a couple hours.

I lock the bus doors as our driver was not in there. I proceed to yell in mixed emotions about the situation, angry that Tyler responded the way he did. "I thought he would at least be sweeter about the situation" I yell. I try to calm myself down but at this point i'm sitting in a corner facing the wall crying and trying not to explode.

I hear a knock on the door followed with the voice of our driver and Tyler chatting "Josh, are you okay in there?" Steve says worrying, "We need  to get going." He unlocks the door letting him and Tyler in. Tyler tries to comfort me and talk about the situation but I move to the back of the bus and he decides to let me be for now.

We don't talk for the whole ride back to Ohio until we get there. "Josh can I please talk to you?"

Me a bit more calm but still looking like I just came from a horror film I grunt, "Whatever." I walk over to Tyler at the front of the bus and sit down on the seat but still a decent distance away from him. "What do you want Tyler?"

"Okay, Listen Josh. I am not leaving this bus until I make myself clear." He sounds stern, "I was not mad at you last night, I was upset." He followed. "I was upset that after all these years you tell me now, I always had a thing for you but now i'm married to Jenna." I feel my heart start to slowly repair from the broken state. "Josh, i've always had a thing for you."

I start to smile, as his straight face turned as well. Tyler leans in and kisses my cheek and gets off the bus into his car. His lips were so soft, I melt in my seat. Confused on what is going on I decide to just accept what just happened.

I get out of the bus said bye to Steve and go home to my house. I still didn't feel in a mood to do anything so I quickly brush my teeth and go to bed.