Pregnant by Matthew Espinosa

~Part 5~

Matt~ I quickly ran up to my room and slammed my door. I looked at all of our pictures together and grabbed them all. I tossed everything of hers onto the bed and just broke down more. I started crying my eyes out. Again. I saw my phone by one of our pictures and grabbed it. I debated whether or not I should text her or not. I decided not to considering she doesn't like me anymore.

She doesn't like me anymore.

That sentence broke me even more than I already am. What did I do? Or what did she do?

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Sophia~ Megan was rubbing my back as I was crying my eyes out. The guilt was coming in heavily. I'm so sorry.

"Megan, what if he does something to himself or others??" I said with my eyes going wide.

"Soph, the only way to stop him from doing something like that is to take him back..." She told me.

"No. He deserves someone else. He's too young for a kid and his future is too bright. I'll just talk to him later or tomorrow at school." I said wiping my tears.

I got up and grabbed everything that was his and put it in a bag. I grabbed all of our pictures together and set them in my closet under other things. I grabbed the bag with all of his things in it and set them by my door. I'll hand the bag to him tomorrow. Wow, tomorrow is going to be very awkward.

"You need to call him." Megan said behind me.

I turned around quickly and raised an eyebrow. "Why?" I said.

"To check up on him."

I sighed. She was right. God knows what he's doing or about to do. I grabbed my phone, dialed his number, and walked out. I paced back and fourth just waiting for him to pick up.

/conversation\(m-Matt s-Sophia)

M: h-hello?
S: Matt, are you okay?
M: I-I don't know. I don't know what I did or what happened.
S: what do you mean?
M: Soph, I don't mean to alarm you but there's blood everywhere and I just can't do it anymore. I'm so sorry.
S: Matt!!? What do you mean there's blood everywhere?? Stop doing whatever you're doing! I'll be right there! Hold tight. It'll be okay. I love you, stay strong.
M: Okay

I hung up and quickly grabbed Megan and frantically ran to my car. Please be okay Matt please be okay.

"I'll drive." Megan said rushing into the drivers seat. I couldn't stop my tears from pouring out of my eyes.

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I didn't even let Megan park the car before I ran inside. "Matt!" I yelled out before I ran around his house.

I ran upstairs to his room and looked around. I saw all of my things and our pictures on his bed. "Matt!" I yelled louder than last time. I ran towards the bathroom once I heard something drop. I twisted the door knob and opened the door. There was Matt on the ground sobbing with blood all over his hands. Glass was all over the ground from the broken mirror and there was a hole in the wall.

"Oh Matt." I said dropping to my knees and grabbing him. I brought him onto my lap and ran my fingers through his hair. He wrapped his hands around me and buried his head into my neck and just sobbed.

Megan came up and I looked at her and mouthed "could you hand me a washcloth?" She nodded and walked to the closet and grabbed one then got it wet. She handed it to me and I took it.

"Matt what happened?" I said as Megan walked back downstairs.

"I-i don't know. It all happened so quickly. I felt like you didn't care and I felt like you wouldn't save me." He said as I started rubbing his back.

"Matt, I will always care. I'll always be here. Don't hurt yourself anymore. Alright?" I said moving back a little and looking into his eyes. His eyes weren't a light brown anymore. They looked almost grey and the light in them wasn't there anymore. He was shivering too.

He nodded and hugged me again. I rubbed his back and ran my fingers through his hair.

"Let's get you washed up." I said standing up and helping him up. He grabbed my hands and stood up. I had to catch him a little bit because he was shaking and dizzy. I walked him over to the toilet and put the lid down so he could sit on it.

I grabbed his hands and washed them under the faucet. I called Megan up and asked if she could grab me the medical kit and she grabbed it and handed it to me. I could feel Matt's eyes on me the whole time. I opened the first aid kit and dug through it to find what I needed to bandage his knuckles up. I wiped his knuckles and put some wrap on it. I gave them a quick kiss and then kissed his forehead.

"You better now?" I asked and he nodded and stood up. He grabbed me and gave me a hug and buried his face in my shoulder. I hugged him tighter.(picture in media)

I'm really going to miss his warm, tight, loving hugs. I never want to let him go but I have to. Here it goes. Time to make Matt's heart break even more...

I let go of the hug and kissed his cheek. "Promise me you won't hurt yourself anymore." I said with my hands on his cheeks, making him look at me in the eyes.

He sighed and nodded. "I promise." I gave him a small smile and I let him go.

"I should be going now." I sighed quietly.

"No, please don't leave." He said grabbing my waist.

"I'm sorry Matt but we aren't together anymore. I'll see you at school tomorrow. Bye." I said and walked out but he quickly followed behind me.

"You can't leave me! I need you Soph. I really need you." He said as his voice cracked. He fell to the ground and put his head in his hands and just sobbed.

"Matt, you don't need me. You are a grown, independent man. You don't need me. You want me. You'll be fine. Trust me, in like a month you'll be over me. Remember those two quotes I told you awhile back? 'Every storm runs out of rain' and 'you can find peace amidst the storms that threaten you.' You'll be okay soon Matt. This is just a bad storm for you and I. I have to go now, goodbye."

"Soph, I won't get over you. I will never get over you. I love you way too much. And this storm will never pass over because usually they only pass over when you are with me. Believe me when I say I need you. I don't understand what I did to make you break up with me when you still love me. If you want to leave then go. Just go. You, yourself, knows that everyone leaves me. My dad left me, my brothers left me, all of my friends left me except for two and now you. The love of my life is leaving me."

"I'm sorry Matt. I'm so sorry."

"No you aren't. If you were you would have never broken up with me and you wouldn't be leaving me! Just go. Just leave!" He yelled and I flinched a little. I opened my mouth to say something but he yelled at me again. "Get out!" He said getting up and I quickly hurried out and out the front door. Megan started the car and I quickly got in.

"Go." I said sighing and she drove off.

School is going to be absolute hell tomorrow...