Phan Shots

One Shot 6

((Dan's POV))

WARNINGS: Abuse and Very Little Suicidal Content

I woke up next to a gorgeous man, he was in my arms curled up, his hair messy, and looking as peaceful as ever; Phil was his name. I nestled back into the pillow holding him close, but as soon as I did that I saw his eyes flutter open. I smiled at him and kissed his forehead, "I'm sorry baby, did I wake you?" I asked in a low voice knowing he wasn't a morning person.

"No." He said smiling back, but soon yawned and stretched cuddling closer to me. "What time is it?" he asked his eyes closing again.

"I think noon." I wish I didn't say that as soon as I did, because he then got up with a jump getting his cloths on. "Where are you going?"

"I have to head back to Kevin's." he said hopping to get his pants on and soon his t-shirt.

"Please can't you stay just a few more minutes? He won't even be up for another three hours." I was begging him not to go back by this point giving him every reason to stay and not go.

His 'other boyfriend', I wouldn't even call it that, is very abusive.  He doesn't let him eat six hours before they have sex, makes him smoke, get drunk constantly in situations that he doesn't help Phil out of, making him take drugs, beats him, burns him, and that's only a few stories I've heard. I have never met the guy, thankfully, but I still want to help Phil, so if keeping him here when he can get away is great. I tell him to just stay here, that he won't find him, but he says that he would as he has friends too, which just worries me even more.

"Do you need a ride?" I offer, because although I never wanted to meet the guy I still wanted to see him, I don't know what I would do, but I do want Phil to be safe.

"No I'm good, plus I don't want to risk you getting hurt." Phil says grabbing his coat at the door and about to open the door, before I say, "What about a goodbye kiss?" Phil begins to walk over and I step out from under the sheets and I walk the rest of the way. We meet in the middle and kiss. The kiss goes on for a while, it started out as a 'see you later', then to a 'goodbye', and soon into a 'love you so much'. I just got to the point where I realized that every time I saw him, I knew it could be my last.

I started to unbutton his pants, but I regretted it immediately, because he pulled away and said, "You know I can't do that now." He buttoned his pants and saw that I still didn't have on cloths. "And you should really put on some pants or you're not going to get anything done today."

"Why, is it distracting?" I smirked and he just pecked my lips and said, "I will see you soon, love you."

"I love you too, please be safe." I pecked his lips again and then pinned him to the wall next to the door and he said, "Ugh, I can't. I have to go." He pecked my lips once more and said, "I'll be as safe as I can be." then left. I punched the wall and rolled my eyes before going to go put on some cloths to get ready for work.

The whole day through work I just couldn't stop thinking of his last words 'I'll be as safe as I can be.' I had coworkers coming up to me asking me if I was okay, and of course I said yes. I had just got promoted and I had to move soon, so I was also wondering how I break it to Phil. I could get him to move in with me and we could not worry about anything. This had been going on for a year now and this was really getting to me now. I don't know how he could stay in this relationship? I have never gone threw any abuse like this, so I guess I couldn't say that I did understand.

At the end of the day I wasn't even paying attention to my phone ringing anymore. I just made my assent get them as I tried to balance a pencil below my nose and throw paper wads into the trash, failing miserably. I was finally able to leave work and I drove home without the car radio on.