I've Got Some Venting To Do

Overusing Words

I overuse a lot of words; happy, sad, depressed, pain, drama, feelings, numb, and lots more.

I'm not saying I don't feel literally every. Single. One of these, but I feel like I still use them too much and I don't want them to lose meaning to the people I voice them to, even myself.

I also overuse the word 'love'.

I'll never know what true love is until I let go of these fakes.

Don't get me wrong, I care (for you). I just don't love (you). 

I don't love you, or her, or him or any of them. I can't. It would be fake. 

That word has such a gravity defying meaning and I think that, as a whole, our entire world overuses.

It's a beautiful word, but it's overused.

And I think I finally know that this word, love, is not just a word, it's multiple things that don't have words to describe them all put together into one, magnificent word. 

Love. 

I overuse a lot of words. 

I dramatize a lot too. 

It hurts more than anyone knows. 

That's okay though. 

I'll dramatize, then dramatize some more, and then a little bit more, and then a lot more and then it will just evaporate into nothing but aching numbness. 

Watch me evaporate. 

Like the words I overuse.