In the End

• Crying •

I cry.
Yes, it happens.
But don't you think
That I should be able to cry?
Don't you think
That telling me to stop crying is wrong?

Telling someone to stop crying
Is like telling them to turn off humanity.

Telling someone to stop crying
Is like telling them to not have feelings.

Well guess what?
I do have feelings.

I have feeling towards you,
I have feelings towards my friends,
I have feelings towards my family.

But when you tell me not to cry,
I don't know what to feel.

Because crying is humanity.
Crying is a way of getting through darkness.

I feel darkness and fear every single day.
If tears are my only way to manage that,
Then let me cry.

Don't tell me to stop,
Don't tell me to shut it off.
Don't tell me everything will be okay
Because it's never gotten any better.

I'm not sure if it will ever get better.
I don't know if it ever will.
And if it does get better,
If this pain goes away,
Then I have no idea in hell how.

I've been stuck with this pain for a very long time,
And I've learned to accept it.

But telling me not to cry...
Now that's not ok.
That is what makes me leave.

But in the end, I will cry all I want.
In the end, I'm still human.