Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 12

~Picture of Tae above

Stacey

I sat on the couch with my legs folded in the dark. Cherish was sleeping and it was two o'clock in the morning and Moriah still hasn't got home yet.

My sister is 18, and true enough she is grown. But I know my sister and she is easily influenced and I worry about her a lot.

Then the fact that she's so small and young, makes me scared that someone can easily snatch her ass up. This world isn't safe to live in. The least she could have done was text me back and let me know she was OK.

I got up from the couch and looked out my blinds hearing a car pull up in my drive way.

I saw a woman that looked familiar but couldn't put a name to her. I watched as Moriah got out of the car and said something to the girl as she pulled off.

I unlocked the door without hearing her knock and she walked inside with a normal face. I hate her fucking don't care attitude! The shit gets on my damn nerves.

Closing the door behind her and locking it I turned on my light and looked her over. "Moriah where the fuck were you! You know its two something in the fucking morning and I have a fucking child! I can't keep staying up waiting on you every night! Then the fact your ass didn't answer any of my calls or text messages pisses me off!" I snapped.

She sat on the couch and put her feet on the arm rest. Just chill Stace. She said as she pulled out her phone.

I rolled my eyes. "Look I understand your 18, and I have been that age before! I just don't want anything to happen to your ass. Your pregnant!! You can't be running up and down the road all the time! If your going to be out this late you might as well find you another place to stay since your so grown!" I tell her.

Fine then, I'll leave! I'm sick of you always trying to be my fucking mama! Our mother is dead Stacey!! Dead!! You make it seam like yo shit all peaches and cream and you better than every fucking body! I know I'm fucking pregnant! You don't have to tell me that and blow it up in my face EVERY TIME you get mad about something! And far as getting out your house, I'll get out! Shit, you so fucking backwards Bruh, one minute its "oh don't stay out late Moriah", now its "Get out Moriah." Knowing I don't have no where to fucking go at two in the damn morning. But fuck you! Me and my child will be good! I'm sick and tired of everybody telling me what I can and can not do!! This shit aggravates my fucking soul!! She yelled as tears came down her face making her face turn red.

I didn't even say anything, shit I couldn't. She was right in her own way and I was right in my own way. I don't want anything to happen to my sister I really do love her! But maybe I needed to give her her space as a young adult. But I couldn't see myself doing that.

"When mom and dad died, I didn't know what to do. We were so young. I was 6 and you were 1. We got separated when they put us in the foster home. And I was just like you Moriah, lost....hurt, confused, and I was seeking for help! I had Cherish at 20 years old. I wasn't done living. I didn't even know how to be a mother to her. At 18 my goal was to get a job and get you out of that home. I really love you Moriah! I know I can be overly dramatic about certain things. I just want you to be better than I am. Look at us! Do you really think mom and dad would want to see us like this!? I wish I could go and rewind time and change a lot of shit that happened to us in the past...but I can't! That's why I try to be there for my baby and teach her things so she won't turn out how I did. I didn't really mean to tell you to get out, cause I know you have no where to go. I'm sorry." I told her as I wiped the tears that fell out of my eyes.

She walked over to me and gave me a hug and I kissed her on the cheek. We stayed in that position for the longest, just crying and hugging one another.

*The next day*

Moriah

I woke up from the couch. I looked at my phone seeing it was 1 something in the afternoon.

Me and Stacey had stayed up all night crying, talking, and laughing. We both had a lot of issues and things we needed to get off of our chest. I finally told her about my baby situation of not knowing if Kevin or a guy named Justin was my babies father. I could tell she was mad a little. But she didn't yell about it. She just simply hugged me and told me it would be ok and when I have the baby I could have each of them take a blood test.

I don't really know where my life is headed, but I just pray I don't be a bad mother. I got up off the sofa and walked into the bathroom seeing Cherish on the toilet. "Eww awntie Riah, get out!" She said scrunching up her face. I laughed at her facial expression. She was too cute. I walked back out of the bathroom closing the door behind me just a little so she wouldn't be scared.

I walked to the kitchen where Stacey was cooking breakfast and singing to some church music that was playing from her phone.
She can not sing.....at all.......

Good morning beautiful. She said as I took a seat at the kitchen table. "Morning." I responded.

"What you want to do today?" She asked. I shrugged my shoulders. I didn't have to work at the club today so I was free to do whatever.

I was making at least three hundred a night and was putting it in a pickle jar so I could save it for my baby.

"Umm, want to go shopping. Have a girls day out or something. Just me, you, and Cherry?" I asked.

Yea that's sounds fun. Cherish!! She yelled.

Mommy I'm using the badroom. She yelled back.

We both laughed at the way she said bathroom.

"You using the what Cherry?" I asked her again.

The badroom she yelled back. Making us laugh again.

The what? Stacey yelled.

Ugghh, I said da badroom. She yelled back again growing annoyed.

We laughed so hard at her.
OK Cherry well when you finish come eat breakfast baby. Stacey told her.

I got up from my seat and walked into the living room to grab my phone. Scrolling down my Instagram timeline I seen where I had got lots of like from the pictures I took last night at the club.

"What time we going?" I asked Stacey walking back into the kitchen.

Maybe when the sun goes down so we won't be so hot and sweaty. She said. I nodded.

Just as Stacey was fixing Cherish's plate she came walking in with a piece of tissue stuck under her shoe traveling behind her. "Cherish take that tissue from under your feet and throw it away. Did you wash your hands?" I asked her.

Yes awnty Riah, I washed my hands. She said while throwing away the tissue and then sitting down at the table.

Stacey placed a pink cup in front of her that was filled with lemonade. Drink that AFTER you eat Cherry. She told her.

Cherish nodded her head and begin eating her eggs that Stacey had put on the plate for her.

I hope I be as good as my sister is when it comes to parenting my child. I put my hand on my stomach and thought about it.
I guess its something that takes time.