Just Me Being Myself

Hi...

So, most of you know I'm a Christian.

If you didn't, now you do.

And none (well, maybe one) of you know how much I've been struggling lately.

As a Christian, my ultimate goal in life is to serve God. He's the only reason I'm alive and the only reason I have hope. I seem to be the only one who does nowadays...

Anyways. I don't know. The thing I'm struggling with...I just need prayer for it. If you happen to also be a Christian, please pray for me. There's so much going on, and I don't know how to deal. The only thing I can do is pray and try to turn my life around.

I'm not perfect
Being a Christian doesn't make life easier
I know struggles are normal, and that to most people, this is childish.

But people's opinions won't hurt my faith. My God is bigger than all of that. And it seems impossible to be like me. I can't live like I have been anymore. I realized tonight just how bad my relationship with my Lord and Savior has become. And I need to fix it. ASAP.
Because really, that's what I want. I would honestly rather be friendless and alone and be a Christian than have all the friends and money and power and know I was going downstairs after death.

It pains me how many of my friends don't want anything to do with God. I don't know why, but I'm so scared. All I want is for everyone to be happy, and I know that God gave me true joy. Prayer is a powerful thing, and I believe it can change lives if it's of God's will.

I think I'll end on that note. Goodnight everyone.