"Jayvon?" I said shook. My heart was pounding in my chest and I could feel my breathing getting quicker and tears building up in my eyes.
"Who?" He said confused.
I calmed down a bit. "Uhh... You.." I took in a deep breath. "You look like somebody that I miss terribly. I mean I thought you did before but the eyes stopped that but now that I see you have hazel eyes." I stopped.
"I'm sorry I'm not who-" I cut him off.
"It's fine. Can I just ask you, what's your full name?"
"Jermaine"
I stared blankly for a moment. Many thoughts going through my head at the moment and I just want to cry.
I felt the tears go to my eyes and I put my head up trying to hold them in. "Goodnight" I said quickly jumping off the counter heading towards the door.
Jay stopped me with his hands and looked at me for a moment. He cupped his hands around my face as tear started to fall and he wiped it with his thumb.
I stared into his hazel eyes. And suddenly I saw my Jayvon, only older.
No. I started to shake my head. He's gone. More tears started to fall. I will never have him back. Then I started crying uncontrollably.
"Hey,hey" Jay said trying to calm me down. It didn't work. I started to lose strength in my body and felt myself start to collapse, only to be caught. Jay carried me bridal style up the stairs as I cried into his shoulder.
He layed on my bed and comforted me as I cry into his chest.He covered us with the blanket and I cried silent tears to sleep.
I woke up to my phone ringing
'Hello' I said in a morning scratchy voice.
'Hey sweetie I forgot to remind you, today's the company picnic I wanted to bring the kids.' My mom said in her cheery voice.
'Ok mom, they can go. And I'll come by later.'
'Great I'll be there in 30 mins' then she hung up'
Thirty minutes? I jumped up and ran to get the kids ready.
Twenty five minutes later they were eating waffles in the kitchen as I packed each of there bags with extra clothes, bathing suits, and towels.
I saw my mom pull up and I ran downstairs to open the door.
I got the kids in the car kissed them goodbye and watched my mom drive off.
I went back in the house, went upstairs to my room.
I sat on my bed and looked at Jay who was sound asleep. He was laying on his stomach. His head was facing me. And I couldn't take my eyes off his scar.
Then a picture of Jayvon in that hospital bed came to mind. The love of my life laying there, and there was nothing I could do to help.
I remembered his shut eyes and the bandage around his head. The left side. The same side Jay has his scar.
I sat there with a questioning look on my face. There has to be an explanation for this. He can't be Jayvon, he's dead. Right?
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Flashback
It was the last day of school. I was sitting on the bleachers watching Jayvon play basketball in the gym with his friends. He called time out then ran over to me and hugged me. "Ewww baby your all sweaty!" I joked pushing him away. He laughed then gave me a kiss. "I love you princess." "I love you prince" He smiled and took off his shirt I took his towel and started wiping his sweat off. On his stomach next to his belly button he has a birthmark. I kissed it for good luck. He sat down next to me. "Want some water baby?" "No" he picked up my hand and started playing with the promise ring he gave me. "I just want you." He leaned in and kissed me.
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I felt a hand on my shoulder. Then I realized Jay was giving me a hug. He pulled away and looked into my eyes. "Are you ok?"
I opened my mouth to say yes but when I looked at Jay and saw hazel eyes. I couldn't help it. "No" I said as I started crying. "You just remind me so much of my first love" I said as more tears fell. "The way you make me feel, the way you act the way you treat me the way you look." I sighed and tried to regroup myself.
"Quick question, if I was Jayvon, what would you do?"
Immediately I stopped crying. Because I honestly don't know what I would do.
That question. It stuns me every time.
"I'd te-"
Then my phone rang. It was My husband.
