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Magnus's journal

Triggers and sadness. This is in a kind of Journal form. It will probably break your heart in tiny little pieces just by thinking about it. So enjoy! First is a piece of Alec talking to Magnus on his deathbed.

'Magnus! Hey please listen to what I have to say.' Alec's voice was soothing, but the tears kept pouring down Magnus's face. He never imagined losing him so soon.

'You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You made me want to live again. Even if it wasn't for as long as I imagined, you still made me so happy.' He groaned in pain. It hurt to breath and talk.

Catarina neared Alec. She was there for Magnus. She knew Alec was different from all the other losses Magnus had to endure.

Alec handed her a letter.

She opened the letter. It just said 6 simple words:

Do not let him be alone.

She teared up. How can a love so pure and good be destroyed by death. It was so unfair. She kissed him.

Alec motioned to Magnus to come near again. His arms felt like lead. Magnus grabbed his hand.

'I love you.'  

'I love you too.' Magnus said.

He saw Alec's eyes close and he slipped away. His stomach stopped moving up and down.

'NOO! Alec you have to come back. PLEASE! Do this for me my love.'

He saw no change in Alec's condition and collapsed on the floor. His head fell on Alec's chest. He heard nothing. It was over.

Day 1

I can't bear the thought of never seeing you again. It's only been one day and I'm already considering jumping of the apartment. I can't live with this pain forever. It will kill me. But I'll hold on. For you. I'll do it all for you.

Day 10

It's tough, but I'm trying to get used to it. All for you. I know you want me to stop hurting. That you want me to be happy, but I can't, not without you. I hope you are doing fine. Wherever you are. I hope you at least can be happy. The pain of missing you increases every day, every hour, every minute. I feel like I repeatedly get stabbed in the chest, only worse.

Day 21

I haven't gotten out of bed since you've left. I just can't. There is nothing out there anymore for me.

Day 50

I got out of bed today and I killed 70 demons. They will pay for what they've done to you.

Day 138

I remember everything. From the smell of your messy hair to the day you walked down the aisle. For me. You looked so stunning in the dark blue three piece suit Izzy helped you pick out. It matched your eyes and made them shine even brighter. You were so perfect.

Day 149

Cat came by today. She showed me your letter. I want to say to you that I will not be alone. That I have Izzy, Tessa, Cat and Clary, but I am. They will never ever be able to replace you in my heart. Every single second I miss you. Every second I think of stopping my breath. I'll hold on for you.

Day 254

Today someone came up to me and asked about my clothing. Why It was so black and depressing. I couldn't help but cry. I couldn't even speak your name. It was too hard for me. Just to be reminded of you knocked me down again.

Day 798

It feels like I'm drowning and I'm slowly giving up. I'm releasing my last breath of air and giving in to the waves. I have nothing to hold unto anymore in this world, or in the next. I lost it all. You were the one that fit. After all my stumbling around. You were it. You were my all. You were the one that convinced me I could be happy. Now it just seems that the search for happiness is an ongoing battle.

Even when I'll never be able to reach into heaven to get you, I'll rather be in hell than stay here, surrounded by everything that reminds me of you. Everything that makes me realise again that you are not here anymore and that you'll never be here again.

You were my touch of heaven. The only heaven I'll ever be able to have in my life.

If there is a life after this one, let me meet you in it my love.

This is the end of my journey,

Goodbye.

On the 9th of November 2040 Magnus was reunited with his true love again.

Im so sorry for all the hurt. And if it wasn't as clear as I think it is. Alec died when he was 30 something because of a demon attack and Magnus killed himself to be with him.