Requests the mortal instruments.

The last letter (Malec)

This is a one shot about Magnus after Alec died in the form of a letter. Im sorry for all the sadness. I got the idea of Instagram. No name mentioned. Trigger warning I guess. I have this in Clace in my requests stories. It is basically the same, but with different names.

Dear Alexander,

I don't even know why I'm writing this letter. This letter won't reach you and it's not like it will change anything. I lost you and I know I'll never get you back. I would say I'm okay with it, that I moved on, but I'm done lying. I die inside every little day. I am breaking more every day. I miss you. Nobody will ever be able to replace you in my heart. I just want to be with you once more. Feel your touch on my skin, feel your breath on my lips. Just once more.

I need you and I know I'll never stop needing you. I tried to love someone else, for you. I know you would want me to be happy, even when it meant me to be with someone else. I just can't. None of them come close to you. You were everything and more. You weren't just a star to me, you were my whole damn sky. This is the saddest thing I ever wrote. Sentences concerning you, that contain the past tense.

You need to know that by loving me, you truly gave me a glimpse of heaven. You have always been the one for me. Loving me unconditionally accepting all my imperfections like they make me more perfect. I understand now, that there will never be someone like you again. No one will ever be able to make me feel the way you did, no one will ever be able to love me like you did.

By loving you I remembered how terrible it was is to love something death can touch, how hard it is to lose someone who is more important for you than your own life.

I stopped by the institute today. It was the first time in a very long time; it was the first time since you. I could still see you standing in every shadow, I saw you walking around every corner. But the faces have changed. All new, fresh faces. Then I realised. I was too late. You wouldn't be there anymore. I was playing back our thousands of memories, thinking about everything that we've been through. It's hard to forget someone who gave me so much to remember.

I just feel so alone without you. Why did I ever let you slip away? Ever since you left I haven't been warm, I haven't been able to look at pictures of you, I haven't been able to truly smile. My heart has been broken and nobody was able to repair it. I never should have let you go and die without me. I realise that now.

I wish you were here or I were there or we were together anywhere. The first won't happen I accept that. You know I would go from hell and back for you. I would and I did. I raised demons, but none could help me. I tried everything. Now I just cling unto the hope that if there isn't a heaven, I'll be able to be with you there when I die.

No matter what I do to move on from this pain deep down inside I can't let you go completely. That's why now I'll die on the outside too, in the hope of being with you once again. Maybe this is the way to get our happy ending.

I miss you so much, my love, my only love. Because when I lost you, I lost myself. I loved you yesterday, I love you still and I will always love you, even if we're not together and even if we're far, far away from each other.

I've held on for over 200 years. Now is my time for release.

Forever yours,

I love you,

Magnus

On Monday 7th of February 2304 Magnus Bane killed himself. He died with hope in his eyes.

Forever yours gets such a deep meaning when the one you're writing it about is immortal. It is so sad. I will never get over this. Seriously Im crying so hard right now. But this is without them having children so Magnus won't leave anyone behind. And if I really was too vague. He is going to kill himself to be with Alec.