Uncover

Uncover Part II

Ant POV

AN: angst

AN2: The story goes very slow now, but I promise it will be better :) I just want to highlight Ant's feelings right now. :)

The day after Lisa was at work when the doorbell rang. Dec would just come in, cause he had the keys, so I didn't know who was there. "Hi brother!" Sarha said enthusiastically when I had opened the door. That was enough to let me burst out in tears. Sarha shut the door and she took me in her arms. "Sssh, I'm here, it's okay." She whispered. She led me to the sofa and let me cry in her arms for a couple of minutes. "Do you want to talk about it?" she asked. I nodded. I had to tell somebody, I couldn't take it anymore. "It's really difficult, Sarha." I sniffed. "Is there something wrong with Dec?" she asked. "Or with Lisa?" I shrugged when she asked about Dec first. "I cheated on Lisa." I confessed. "You did what?!" Sarha asked, almost shouting. I cringed. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to shout." Sarha said, a lot more silent now. "Where did you meet her? I mean, you don't have that much time alone, do you?" Sarha asked. I cried again. She didn't even know I was in fact bisexual. Or gay with a crush on Lisa. Or Decsexual. It didn't matter, she didn't know I was not straight. It scared the sh*t out of me. "Talk to me, Ant." Sarha said. "Dec." I only said. "What?" Sarha asked. "Dec and I have been together for over 20 years. We've been in a relationship since we were 18 years old." I cried. I saw Sarha didn't know what to say, but she took me in her arms again. "Wow, this is a total mess, isn't it?" she said and gave me a kiss on my head.

"I can't take it anymore, Sarha." I told my little sister when I had calmed down a bit. I sipped at the cup of tea she made me. "I have to break up with one of them, but I don't know with who." "I would say Dec. You love Lisa, don't you? And your friendship would survive it, I'm sure." Sarha said, thinking with me. I looked at my hands. "You do love Lisa, right?" She asked. I sighed. "I do, but it's not like it is with Dec. Dec and I have been together for over 20 years and I still fall in love with him more and more every day. But with Lisa, everything is for granted." I told Sarha. "You know, Lisa and I haven't made love in 2 months and when we do, it's all as forced as it can be. When I'm with Dec... Why am I even telling you this?" I asked. I wanted to cry again. "And Dec and Ali? They married last year!" Sarha said. "Well, that's not making me feel better." I said. "But when you think about it... You cheated on each other with your wives..." Sarha noticed. I cried. Again. "And why don't you break up with Lisa then?" Sarha asked. "It's my wife. You don't just break up with your wife!" I snapped. I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry, pet." I said. Sarha cupped my face. "You're afraid of what the nation would say." Sarha new me inside out. "He's married too, Sarha. It's not easy, not at all. When I break up with Lisa, I'm afraid that he will feel forced to do the same with Ali." I said. "And yeah, maybe I am afraid. I don't want to be gay, Sarha, Dec is the only man I've ever loved." She hugged me. Being in my sister's arms felt really good. "I'm gonna break up with Lisa." I decided.