Shawn Mendes Imagines

•Old fan account•

(A/n: Just imagine that you and shawn are 20 in this imagine :) listen to a song with like a sad beat to it idk while reading this i prefer Over Again by One Direction, Act Like You love, Running Low, Moments by One Direction and yea)

Y/n's POV:

"Y/n was this your old fan account?" My boyfriend Shawn asked making me look at him and he showed me my old Twitter account.

Oh no this can't be good

"Uh y-yes it was m-mine." I stuttered "I was hoping that you would say no." He said as his lips formed into a thin line.

"Why should I deny it when you can clearly see my name there." I replied sucking the inner sides of my cheeks "Why did you do it?" He asked "Do what?"

"Don't play dumb Y/n why did you sent Camila hate, we weren't even going out!" He shouted.
(A/n: 1-100 real quick ik)

I stayed silent.

"Did you know that she cried so much because of that, she was hurt as heck, AND SHE EVEN TRY TO FUCKING KILL HERSELF BECAUSE OF THAT!" He yelled at me "I'm sorry ok?" I said but it came out more like a question.

"SORRY DOESN'T FIX THIS Y/N, SHE FELT LIKE REAL CRAP BECAUSE OF THIS AND YOU WERE ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO MADE HER FELT LIKE THAT, SHE CRIED EVERYDAY BECAUSE OF YOU, BECAUSE OF YOUR HATE, AND I WAS HER SHOULDER TO CRY ON!" He shouted again "She even sent you a message to stop but what did you tell her huh?" He asked with an eyebrow raised, I stayed silent again because I didn't know what to say.

"YOU TOLD HER TO STAY AWAY FROM ME AND THAT SHE WAS JUST STUPID SLUT!"

"Can you please stop shouting?" I asked him touching his arm trying to calm him down "No I won't stop shouting!"

"You know how it feels like, to be hated on, you feel so bad that you just wanna cry and she felt worse than that, because you never cried because of hate and she did!" He thought I didn't feel bad because I never cried "You think I never cried when I get hated on by your fans well for your information I did too and don't you tell me she received worst things because I do too!" I said as my breath hitched.

"YOU DESERVED IT Y/N YOU DESERVED IT SO MUCH, AND DON'T EXPECT ME TO COMFORT YOU AND TELL YOU THAT THEY'RE JUST JEALOUS OF YOU THAT'S WHY THEY SEND YOU THOSE SHIT!" He yelled pointing at my chest but never touching me "I know well that I deserve it and I really do, that was 3 years ago Shawn I changed since then!" I yelled back "I know I deserve everything from 'You whore' to 'Please go kill yourself' I know that I deserve it and I'm gonna do it." I continued "Go do it, I know you won't you're just saying that, and it would make me so happy if you really do it." He said getting out of the door.

The time he got out I burst into tears.

He thought I was kidding.

He thought I wasn't gonna do it.

But he was wrong.

(a/n: Trigger Warning)

I went to the bathroom and got a blade.

I just want him happy.

One deep cut for Camila

One for the hate I sent her

One deep cut again for the hate I received

A deep cut for Shawn

And one for myself

I just want him happy.
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There's this imagine I wrote and sooo excited to update it but it's not finished but rn im at my 788th word and you guessed it it's gonna be pretty long idk and yea should i?