Shawn Mendes Imagines

•Even If You Don't Mean It•

Ok guys before starting off i suggest you listen to a sad song while reading this, please take your time and read everything i wrote because i did my best for this imagines and this is probably the longest one i wrote so far and yes, please comment and vote if you like it please please please and yea ily and enjoy:)
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Y/n's POV:

It was a normal lonely saturday night alone with myself, because nobody actually has time for me right now....

Especially my boyfriend Shawn who's never home and is always at the studio recording something, making his fans happy and letting the world know what he's capable of.

Ever since he got so well known, he never spends time with me and it gets quite lonely and sad everyday, but there will be times where he's home but after just a few hours he's gonna leave which breaks my heart and also has me wondering if he ever gets tired to be honest.

And everytime he's home I always feel like I'm invisible....

It's like he can't even see me, it's like I'm just a ghost that talks to him telling him that I miss him, everytime I try to kiss him he walks away like I'm nobody.

It's like everything we have is slowly fading away, but we just can't seem to let eachother go.

I just want to feel his love again.

All my thoughts went away when I heard the door open.

I quickly turned the TV off and got up "Hey, you're home." I smiled and hugged him but he doesn't seem to care "Yeah." He replied in a blank tone while taking his shoes off, i tried to help him take his coat off but he just shook my hands off.

When he was done he went to the kitchen where I followed him, he got water from the fridge and I sat down on the counter and asked him "How was today?" And he replied with "Fine." Which I did not believed so me being me I asked him what was bothering him and he replied with "Look, go to the living room we have to talk real quick alright? Wait there.". And that made me worried, but it couldn't be anything bad right?

So I quickly went to the living room and then sat on the couch and waited.

After a few minutes he finally came and sat on the other side couch which was on the opposite side of me.

"So what was it that you want to talk about?" I asked him "It's something about us..." He said looking down "What is it about us that you want to talk about?" I replied while praying in my head that he doesn't wanna end us.

"It's not working out."

A nightmare come true...

"W-what do y-you m-mean by that, what's not working o-out?" I stuttered "I mean that it's not the same anymore for the both of us." He said looking everywhere but me "If you're not gonna tell me what isn't working out between us, how am I supposed to make us work again Shawn?" I blurted out feeling the urge to cry "I can't say what's not working between us..." He whispered "Why?" "Because if I did so then it's useless because I know we can't fix us...." "You never know Shawn." "But it will never be the same.".

All I can think of right now is what did I ever do wrong? What can I do?

"Shawn please don't quit, don't give up on us please." I cried while burying my face in my hands "I want you Shawn you're the only one I want." I continued while crying "I'm seeing someone else Y/n and it's why I'm not home I'm seeing-" i cut him off by saying "Camila?" He nodded hesitantly and said "I'm not happy with you anymore Y/n, everything we had is gone to me now, the moments when I look at you and think to myself that you're the one, it doesn't feel like it anymore and I'm sorry if it's not the same to you but you have to let me go, this isn't gonna work out if one of us isn't happy." "So after all these time you've secretly broken up with me so you can be with Camila?" "Yes."

That made me want to hug myself and tell myself that everything will be alright, that this was just a dream and that I'm going to be fine all by myself but I just can't.

I just love him so much.

"Shawn?" I said when he stood up ready to leave "Yes?" He replied, then I stood up infront of him and held his hand and he hesitated but I told him "Please just one last time?" With that he gave in.

"Remember when we first met?" I began, he nodded and then I kissed his hands while tears streamed down my face "Remember when I always called you and it was fine to you, and that time when we became best friends?" I continued and he nodded again.

"Those times when I'm with you Shawn those are the moments I treasure so much, I always feel safe it's like all the negative stuff is away when I'm with you, and your voice is the only thing that can calm me down and make feel like I'm in heaven it's like you're my drug." I sighed and smiled looking at him and he still has a sad face, I made him look into my eyes and I said "Shawn you're the one who completes my day, it doesn't matter if my day wasn't good and everything was just crap, nothing matters when I hear your voice it's the only thing that I want to hear, when I see your face everything stops and it's just like the two of us, you're like an angel to me." "Y/n please stop it." "Please Shawn." "Fine."

"Remember the days when we fought and we just look back at it and say that it was pathetic and shit because we love eachother so much and that those fights were nothing but childish and pointless." I tell him again smiling "But shawn...." I continued and he looks at me "Remember when you first met Camila-" I was gonna say but he cuts me off "Don't bring her into this." "Just please let me alright?" I said in a soft tone "Remember when you first met her and your eyes were filled with so much joy and you were talking like there's nothing that can break you apart..." I said "Like I wasn't even there, like our relationship was non-existent..." I continued.

"And love remember when I cried because of her? I doubt it because it's not that you're forgetful it's that I hid it, I tried to get over it myself I hid my emotions, I hid the pain, I hid the jealousy I was feeling just for you because I-i know that it was wrong to think about you liking her that way, I know that I was wrong because I know to myself that you would never do that." I tell him while more tears streamed down from my eyes "But then came to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore that I didn't even think twice about asking you if you like her not as a friend but more than a friend, remember what you said?" I asked him looking into his eyes "You said no and that she was just a friend and that what I was thinking about accusing you that way, when you said that I knew I was wrong." and he looked away.

"Or else I thought I was wrong, because you can't hide the happiness you feel when you're with her and not with me, there was always something different when you talk to her but, I still believed you, and remember the times where you were talking to her and I was trying to talk to you but, you just can't look at me like the way you look at her, yes it was nothing." After I said that he had a guilty look on his face and he looked like he was about to say something but he just couldn't.

"Remember when you would stay up all night talking to her on the phone laughing, remember when you wrote a special song just for her about how she's not like any other girl you've met before, and then remember going out in the middle of the night and telling me that you're going to Camila's because she needs you, but Shawn were you there for me when I needed you like you were there for her when she needed you? But Shawn I tried to tell myself that everything is ok, that nothing is going on between you two
because she's just a friend..." I said "And Shawn I would like to apologize to you because I can't make you happy like she can and I would like to thank her for making you happy." I smiled and then I kissed his cheek.

"But Shawn remember when you told me you loved me?" I asked him "Yes." Were the only words he can say "Can you please say that to me even if you don't mean it." I tell him "No." "I need to hear it just one last time please." He sighed and said            "I love you."
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I hope you all liked it and I would like to thank the people who requested in my last post thank you that you gave me ideas on what to write, and again please vote if you liked this one byie❤️❤️❤️❤️ (ik i said this would be a cheating imagine but i had a better idea that clicked in like TICK and also by the time you read this the last post is already deleted bc i had to clear some things up and yea)