A Peek Into My Mind

Falling To Pieces

A.N. I posted this on my tumblr (just-a-white-blood-cell) if you want to check it out 😁

You're the reason that I'm happy,
But you're also the reason that I'm falling apart.
I'm broken.
But you're putting me back together again.
But sometimes you forget I'm broken, and you just leave for a little while.
Then all the pieces you fixed break again and I'm left alone and even more broken than before.
I tell you I'm fine, and sometimes you believe me, but sometimes you don't.
But I can't tell you that you're the reason I'm not okay.
That's cruel.
But it's true, and I know that I should tell you the truth, but I can't do that to you.
I don't want you to see how broken I can be, but it's so tough to try to act like you're not breaking when you feel like your entire mind is filled with thoughts that leave you so empty, breathless, broken.
It's in those times that you leave me alone when I realize how utterly dependent I am on you.
That scares me so much; that I could need you this badly, and what we have comes to a close.
Who will I turn to?
What will I do?
You keep my demons at bay,
And without you I am powerless against them.
I need you.
Please, don't leave me.
I'm too broken, too tattered and damaged, utterly defenseless against my own head.

A.N. I would love to hear your opinions (good or bad) about every piece I write on here, so don't be afraid to comment or message me about what you think. 😊