I've begun to notice something.
You say "I have to talk to you"
Have.
As if it's a requirement.
I guess I put that idea in your head,
That it's expected of you.
But, as a boyfriend, shouldn't it be "I want to talk to you"?
Do you ever want to talk to me?
It sucks that that's always the thing I think.
I've over-thought that same question so many times that by now I've lost count.
Isn't that the question I should never have to ask myself?
But everything seems to come before me, literally everything.
I don't want to seem stuck-up or selfish, but if I automatically assume that since you're playing video games, watching something, working on something, etc. you won't respond for 20 minutes, then we might have a problem.
But the same thing has been going on for 2 months now.
You'd think by now we would've resolved this,
But it just keeps getting worse.
We either say things that hurt the other person or we move on and bottle up the feelings.
This combination of both and the way nothing ever changes is awful.
This endless cycle of heartache is emotionally exhausting and eventually one of us is just going to be done with the whole thing.
And sadly I think I'm going to be the one that says goodbye.
With the amount of emotional ups and downs lately and how nothing changes, I honestly don't know how much more I can deal with.
I said I would never leave, but I need to figure out myself and you need to figure out if you actually want me in your life.
I'm done playing this game of cat and mouse;
If we don't resolve this issue,
You just might lose me.
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A Peek Into My Mind
De TodoThis will be a collection of writings; stories, thoughts, ideas, feelings, etc. I know most of them will probably suck, but I feel like I should share some of what I write with you guys. So I'm putting myself out there in hopes that someone may rela...
