Better Together

loser

I'm a loser. I'm a mess without her. But how could I blame her, when I'm the one who let her go? Naduwag ako, aaminin ko. Natakot ako na baka, she'll hurt me like my ex did. But damn, I love you. I love you, Cyd Demecillo. Akala ko fans lang natin nahohopia sa ship natin, ako din pala. I really hate everything about me. For being so dumb, stupid, and crazy.

"Brader! Ano na?" Ara said, na halatang halatang inis na inis sakin.

"Nakikinig kaba ha?! Kanina pa ako dada ng dada dito, di kanaman yata nakikinig! Puro ka kasi Cyd!" Sabi ni Ara.

"Paks mo ba? E ikaw nga puro bang ng bang kahit break na kayo! Pinagpalit ka lang kay Masangkay e, Kay fafa thomas ka nalang kasi bhe!" Sabi ko naman. Aba'y it's true naman e. #LabanThomara

"Che, Kimmy! So ano na ba, Tara na? She asked.

"Kanina pa kaya akong ready! Bilis ko kaya kumilos!" Wow self, big word. Hindi pa nga akong handang kalimutan ka, and I'm not that fast to recover and move on.

"Aysh! Lezzgo!" Ara said and managed a small smile, but not that genuine smile. Di pa talaga sya maka-move on. Gaya ko. We're losers.

Finally, we arrived at the bar Ara can't stop talking about. There's this great band daw kasi, so she wants me to watch them perform. Ewan ko ba kay Ara, hindi naman ako mahilig sa ganto. Well maybe, gusto lang nyang makalimot kami. For the mean time. Ara ordered us drinks and I started drinking.

Damn that girl that I love the most, why can't I forget her? I still can feel how warm her hugs are, her kisses against my lips, our nonsense yet memorable conversations, late night calls.

"I love you Kim." Cyd said calmly, with a huge smile.

"Cydthealee Demecillo, look at the moon and the stars. They look deep, calm, true, and pure. And look, we're drinking coffee. You know how I feel about nights like this, no jokes. Just deep conversations." Kim said and sighed.

Cyd held Kim's hand and said, "Who told you I'm not serious?"