My meant to be |jortini|

33. But

I woke up in someone's tight, warm embrace. After more than a year the feeling is still more than amazing.

My is hurting as hell, and my eyes felt so heavy. Since I was stabbed I have these stupid headaches very often.

Jorge and I were both laying on our sides, facing each other. He held my body strongly, so we were chest to chest.

My head was deep in his neck, breathing in his cologne. My lips curved a bit as I remember the great scent. His scent.

Last night he was so sweet towards me. I seriously don't know what would I do without him.

He helped me so much. His hugs, his sweet words which gave me so much hope... and that kiss...as much as stupid it was of me to do that...it helped me so much. All my negatife feelings were gone after that.

I looked up to his face. His cute morning face. His lips were parted slightly, letting out a few soft snores now and then. His light morning curls were over his closed eyes. That obviously bothered him and I moved them a bit. He flinched by my touch and his eyes fluttered opened immediately.

He looked at me first shocked, but he relaxed as soon as he realized it's me. He gave me one of his beautiful smiles with his eyes half closed.

No.

This is wrong.

So wrong.

As soon as that I jumped out of his arms and sat up straight as far as possible on his massive bed.

"Uhm..sorry..my head just hurts so much" I said stuttering.

"Wait I'll get you some painkillers" he quickly jumped of the bed and ran to the bathroom.

Aw, he really cares about me...

In no time he was standing in front of me with glass of water in one and an Aspirin in his other hand.

"Thanks" I said after swallowing it.

"How are you? Besides the headache." He asked sitting next to me.

"Fine, I guess....I just can't believe that out of 7 billion people in this damn word he has the cancer." I said with a weak voice as I felt the tears escape my eyes.

"What have I told you yesterday..." Jorge starts as he wraps his arms around me, making me crash onto his body.

"...He's a strong man Tini. All you need is to believe in him, have a bit of hope." He kissed my forehead.

"Why are you being so nice to me?" I sniffed as I came out of his arms and looked directly in his eyes. He gave me a puzzled look.

"I mean, since you came here I've been treating you like a piece of shit. And yes you deserved all of that, even more for cheating. Yes you were drunk, but you still did that to me. I gave you everything I ever had. God damn everything! Don't you remember what you said to me when I fucking gave myself to you?!

Flashback

Once we got in the bedroom he stopped kissing me and put me down on the bed, so I was now laying on it.

He looked me in the eyes and smiled, making me melt inside.

"Thank you for trusting me enough. I promise I'll never let you down babygirl." He said causing millions of butterflies in my stomach. I smiled at him before locking our lips together...

End of flashback

"Well guess what?! You did let me down. You disappointed me, you lost my trust. You hurt me like no one ever did! And then dissappeared from my life. It was easier, but at the same time even harder for me. I loved you so much... Then you came back, just like that. Out of nowhere. You apologized and explained everything, but that is just not enough! You have no idea how much I suffered. And now after everything your so nice to me. Your the old, sweet, caring Jorge that I used to know." I cried out screaming. This is it. My mental breakdown. I let everything out.

"Tini... I've never changed. I've always been the same.." he said with a sad look in his emerald green eyes.

"And I don't know why but I- I still love you..." i said. I looked at him and saw a few tears form in his eyes.

Why the bloody hell? Why?! I don't know, I don't get it! I just can't bare with all this shit! It's too much for me!" I screamed. Jorge quickly put his arms around me trying to calm me down. Allci did is cry and hit his chest with my hands balled in fists.

"Tini...hey calm down...please..." he held me even tighter.

After a few minutes I finally calmed down a bit. He still had his arms wrapped around me.

"Look, I know that this isn't enough...but I'm really sorry for everything I've done. I regret that freaking mistake every second of my life that has no meaning for me since you're not mine anymore... I'm sorry for all the pain I caused. I'm sorry for letting you down. For hurting you so bad....I'm so, so sorry" he whispered the last part.

"Look...I know I said that I forgave you. That was a lie. I just wanted all those duet things to be easier for both of us" I honestly confessed.

"I know" he chuckled. Of course he does, he knows me better than anyone.

"But now... I really forgive you" I said looking up at his eyes. They were wide open.

"You serious?" He asked.

"Death serious" I said. This was real. And he knew that I wasn't lying.

"But.." I started, immediately reviving a groan from Jorge.

"Why's there always a 'but'?" He whined making me giggle.

"You have to promise me we'll be friends. Great friends. Best friends. And no more than that." I said as his face fell.

"O-okay...sure...best friends" he siad.

My hands reached out for his head to hold, making it easier for me to give him a proper kiss on his right cheek.

"I'm so happy to have you back in my life."