My meant to be |jortini|

36. Cravings

For my babe Joyfulblanco♡

I want her.

That's what I have to say in fifteen minutes in front of whole America.

Am I nervous?

Nah, I'm just walking around the dressing room like a maniac bitting this god damn bubble gum and my freaking nails for half an hour now.

This is gonna be so fucked up. Especially now that she doesn't wanna at least fucking look at me. Not to mention talk to me or something.

"I'm sorry" all of a sudden, Tini barged on my door and started excusing her.

"It's not only your fault, I should've reacted earlier. I had no rights to shout at you yesterday and I'm really, seriously, very sorry. Please don't stay mad at me" she pleaded.

"Tini, I was never mad at you" I said sighing in relief as I opened my arms for her.

She smiled big, ran towards me and jumped, wrapping her fragile arms around me.

"Tini, Jorge, you're on in five" someone said from the hallway. Probably someone from the stuff.

"Jorge, should we get going?" She asked coming out of our hug.

"Yeah, let's go" I grabbed her hand and together we went out of my dressing room.

~

"And now, ladies and gentlemen, the premiere of their new song, Jorge and Tini" the host of the show said after we had a little interview.

As the music started, my heart was beating so freaking fast. I looked nervously at Tini. Soon she looked at me and I immediately turned my head to the opposite direction. I have a feeling that if I look into her eyes I'll have a heart attack.

Just before Tini had to start singing, I felt a small hand grab mine. I looked down to see Tini's fingers lace with mine, and a light squeeze coming from her hand.

Okay Jorge, you can do this.

"People say I'm probably crazy
So I'm probably crazy
'Cause I'm still loving you insanely
Look who you made me" Tini started singing with her beautiful voice.

That was a sing for me to hold her up in my arms as I joined her in the cours. "'Cause I want you
I want you
Oh I want you
I want you" we both sang while I spun her as she fell right in my arms.

"Even though you broke me
Still want you to hold me
I'll take you with all of your good and your ugly
I still want you
Can't help that I do" we moved together all over the stage. Man, when was the last time we preformed together?

"I know that I should probably hate ya
But I can't hate ya
It's like my heart is in a room of razors
I can't escape you" we continued as I saw Tini trying to hide her face. What the hell is wrong?

"And I'm crashing in the walls of lies
But my love for you is stronger than my pride
I know that I should probably hate ya
But I can't hate ya 'Cause I want you
I want you
Oh I want you
I want you

I'm tragically addicted
Hopelessly committed
You're not good for me and I admit it

I want you, I want you
Oh I want you
I want you" we finished the song hugging each other.

I looked at her and saw some tears she was trying ti hold back from slipping over her rossy cheeks. Tini hid her head in my chest immediately after that.

Shit, have I done something wrong?

The camerman gave us a sign which meant that they stopped shooting. I quickly left the stage and started going towards dressing rooms as fast as possible, with Tini in my arms, who let out a small sob.

We finally came to her dressing room, as she let go of me.

Her eyes were a bit, and there were some small stains of mascara on her cheeks.

"Tini, what's wrong?" I asked her as she just shook her head, whipping the tears with her fingers.

"No, nothing really. Silly of me to get so much into the song. Look what it caused." She chuckled a bit trying to sound all right.

"What, what's with the look?" She smiled whipping her make up with some wet wipes as a looked at her death seriously.

"Tell me the truth" I said as she rolled her eyes.

"I already told you the truth" she said simply getting into little bathroom that was connected with the room.

A minute later she came out wearing some skinny jeans and a white button shirt.

"Tini, I'm not stupid. The truth. Now." I said harshly raising my voice. Maybe a bit too much.

"I already told you the fucking truth! I got so much into the lyrics that were so much related to our fucking relationship!" She shouted back.

Oh.

"Tini..." I called her name stepping closer to her. She pushed me back immediately.

"No, don't come closer" she said putting her hand in front of me.

"I'm sorry for freaking out. It's just that I saw you hurt, which made me really nervous." I stretched out my hand, which was barely touching her cheek.

"And why would you cry, huh? I thought you were clear enough by the promise we made about staying friends." I said as my thumb traced over her cold cheek.

"I know...but that promise has nothing to do with my feelings. I fell the way I fell and I don't think anything will be able to change that. And you know that she stepped back.

With evey step I came closer she stepped back. That's what brought her stuck between the wall and me.

"I know very well how you feel about me" I spoke quietly, putting one of my arms against the wall, above her head.

"And you know how much I'm craving for your touch..." I whispered in her left ear, placing a small kiss on her neck under it.

She inhaled sharply as my other hand laced around her lower back.

"...I'm missing your kisses so bad..." I spoke in her neck between the kisses, receiving a barely hearable moan, which I bet she was holding in for quite some time. Meanwhile my hand got under her shirt, as many goosebumps apeared where my hand was.

"And your curves...damn... they made me crave for your body even more" I whispered in her other ear, capturing it between my teeth, pulling it, before letting it go.

"But most of all, I'm missing your endless, incurable, magnificent love that makes me go mad." I kissed her colar bone now, pressing her body to mine, earning a loud gasp from her.

"It's all up to you now. Will we stay like this, listening to our minds, both alone and hurt, or let our hearts speak for us and lead us their way" I let go of her and get out of the dressing room, leaving her breathless.