Change (ToMark Fic)

Chapter 5

"Mark, I like you- Not like a friend way, but something more." I say. "Fuck, that sounds so stupid." I slap my hand onto my forehead, and look up at the mirror I've been talking to more than I probably talked to a human in my whole life. "How the fuck am I going to tell him? I'm so retarded." I say to my reflection. "I look stupid, I act stupid, and I really sound retarded right now."

I sigh, and stand up once my name is being called. "Yeah Mom?!" I yell once I open my door.

"Mark is here!" She shouts back.

"Send him up!" I shout back.

I walk into my room, and already here him run up my squeaky stairs. "Your majesty." He bows over dramatically, I laugh while shaking my head.

"I didn't expect you to show up today." I tell him.

"I didn't expect me to show up too. But you know, shit happens." He chuckles and passes me, messing up my neatly brushed hair with his fingers. "So, what shall we do this Saturday evening?"

Should I tell him how I feel today? Sweat forms on my forehead as I think of different ways of him rejecting me. I can't- Yet. I'm not ready.

"I have no clue." I tell him instead, he nods and sits down on my messy, unmade bed. "I see that you're not wearing any makeup." I point out.

He nods. "I took all of it off this morning since it was all over my face. I forgot to take it off the night before."

"Or anytime." I chuckle. "You look nice- I mean, without the eyeliner on your cheek." I joke.

He laughs. "Why, thank you Tom." Mark yawns. "Why am I still tired?" He asks, it sounds like he was asking himself that, but I answer anyways.

"Maybe you went to bed late?"

"When do I not?" He chuckles.

I chuckle, and reach over to some of the records on my bed, and move them so I have room to sit beside Mark who is looking around my room. 

"Why is your room so clean? It never was before." He points out.  

I nod, I clean when I get nervous about something.

"I got bored earlier." I say instead. "Wanna watch a movie?" I ask holding up the DVR tape of the movie, Die Hard. He nods with a smile.

The movie gets started, even though it's one of my favorite movies, and I seriously should be into it-- But I'm not. The whole time it's playing, my mind is somewhere else. Mainly how the hell am I going to tell this cute boy beside me who makes me smile so hard and it could be just because he glances at me, how I feel?

-xXx- Three Days Later -xXx-

I bust out laughing. "Are you crazy? Hell no." 

Benji laughs on the other line, we're thinking of different ways on how I'll tell Mark how I feel, and at this point, there's no serious ideas. Just silly, weird ones.

"Or, you could skydive and just scream how much you like him." He laughs.

"You are not helping me Benj'!" I laugh.

"Billy suggested bring him flowers, and a poem. Or tell him in a nice looking field," He pauses. "He said like at the park, the flowery field beside of it where nobody goes to. He suggests tell him there since it's quiet, and you two will be alone."

I hum. "Now I'm listening, tell Billy that I might actually go through with that idea."

"He says good luck, also that you shouldn't worry. Mark will totally say yes. Which I agree dude, the way Mark looks at you-- There's seriously no way he could reject you."