You Cant Have Me

Chapter 2: little girls aren't supposed to be scared of their mommies

After I was able to hide what my mother did to me I walked down the hall and walked into Sadie's room. I do this every morning so she doesn't have to face that monster by herself. "Hadyn did she hurt you again?" She asks me with her small voice. I nod "yeah but I'll be fine don't worry about me" I say as I try to smile. Sadie walks up to me and gives me a tight hug and starts crying. "I'm so scared. little girls arnt supposed to be scared of their mommies." She sniffles. I rub her back soothingly to try and calm her down while telling myself not to cry. "I know. Don't worry next year when I turn eighteen I'll get us both out of here and buy us a beautiful house with the money daddy left us ok?" I ask her while wiping my tears away. I failed at telling myself not to cry. "Ok" she sniffles. "I miss daddy so much" she sobs. I rub her back some more and whisper in her ear. "I know Sade. I miss him too, alot." I sniffle. "Now get dressed so we won't be late for school ok?" She wipes her eyes and then mine and says "ok" with a soft little voice. God this is so hard. I say in my head.

After sadie finished getting dressed we walked hand-in-hand down stairs together.

"Finally you bring your asses down stairs. Now eat what I cooked."

"Didn't you hear what I said? I said fuck you and your food." I sneer and walk past her towards the front door while bumping her hard that she had to catch herself before she fell on her sorry ass.

"Where do you think your going?! School is for smart girls!"

I grit my teeth and turn around to face her. "I'm going to buy us food because your cooking sucks ass." I say through my gritted teeth. "Yeah your food sucks ass!" Sadie says and hides behind me. That's my sister! Our mother stomps towards us with a murderous look. Her face pure of rage. "I am sick of you treating me like I don't matter to you!" She yells. I smirk and say "you really don't matter to us. We hate you. You have ruined our lives. You even got our father killed. All because of your stupid mistakes! And now we're suffering all because of you! This is all your fault!" I snap. I am so sick of her. I don't even care to listen to what she has to say next so I turned to walk to my car I bought last year.

"What do you feel like eating Sade?" I ask breaking the silence. "I want McDonald's!" She says excitedly. I laugh and shake my head at her. "Alright, McDonald's it is."

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After I dropped sade off at her school I drove to my school and walked to class. "Hey you hadyn right?" Some cute random guy asks me. "Yeah.. do I know you?" I ask. "Actually no. My name's Dominic." He smiles and sticks his hand out for me to shake. I just look at his hand until he finally gets the hint that I'm not going to shake it. "Ok... not a hand shaker." He mumbles to himself and awkwardly pulls his hand back. "Um I'm just gonna sit over there." He says while pointing to the seat in front of me.

"Good morning class, my name is Mrs. Blake. Welcome to your junior year of highschool." She smiles . Soon she starts explaining class rules and basic first day of school crap. I'm starting to get the feeling that someone is watching me so I look up to see a smiling Dominic while he is half turned half way to look at me. I cautiously give him a wave and a small smile. He winks at me and then turns back around. Ok... this kid isn't weird at all.... catch my sarcasm. The bell brings me out of my daydream and I quickly grab my bag and walk out of the classroom. "Hey Haydn wait up." I stop and wait for the person who called my name to catch up "hey I was wondering if you'd like to have lunch with me." Dominic says With a boyish grin that'll make any girl swoon. I smile back at him and say "no thanks I'll eat alone." "Oh come on you always eat alone." He points out. I raise my eyebrow at him and he winces once he realizes what he just said. "I-I didn't mean it like that. I-I'm sorry." I roll my eyes at him and start to walk away. "It's ok don't beat yourself up about it! I'll eat lunch with you. I call out to him. What? Might as well and change things up a bit. I mean he is right I always eat by myself.