The Boy Nextdoor & The Green Eyed Girl

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Me and Alexis silently walked towards the lunch room. Our second class was a living nightmare, the teacher was a bit to laid back and the room turned to crazy town. Luckily it was only one of our 'additional credit' classes so if it the class remains the way it was today, it won't really matter. So when luch rolled around me and Alexis had to blast.

"There is an empty spot" Alexis said pointing in the direction of the edge of a lunch table. I did a silent nod in agreement as we changed our direction for the spot sitting across from one another. Gently I rubbed the side of my head getting rid of a headache that wasn't there, "That class was" I couldn't word it, "Ugh."

Alexis laughed in agreement, "I swear the guy that jumped out the window was high or something, like who in their right mind would jump two stories out a window because your friend said they would pay for your lunch?"

My eyes widened as I talked through my laughter, "Exactly what I was trying to get my head around. If I was that dude I would buy everything just to piss off the dude that dared me." We both erupted in laughter discussing what we would order if shoes were on the other feet.

Slowly the memory from class faded. "So any cute boys in your first?" Alexis asked wiggling her eyebrows as she pulled out a brown paper bag.

I chuckled pulling out my two ziplock bags. "Well I guess one guy is pretty good looking" I smiled opening my bag with cucumbers.

"Details" she exclaimed almost putting over the table. She sat back down like nothing happened and started mixing her salad.

"Well" I started "He has blonde hair, kinda like Zach Efron style. His eyes are like a deep chocolate brown."

"Tall, short?"

"He was average height. Actually probably about my size maybe an inch or two taller. I forget his name though I think it started with a P?"

"Different" she said before taking a mouth full of salad.

I rolled my eyes eating the last cucumber left. Then moving onto the two Oreos. My guilty pleasure. We ate in a comfortable silence until I took a bit of my Oreo and it practically fell apart creating a mess. We laughed.

"Hello Alex" the voice I hated the most came. Keeping my head low my smile fell dusting the Oreo crumbs to the floor. "Gosh don't you think Oreos are a little much?"

Sighing only loud enough for me to hear I looked up and my eyes were met with the hazel ones across the table. I could barely hold the stare. It was so hard not to burst out in tears whenever I saw those eyes.

The eyes I first found friendly and eventually grew a strong hatred towards sat on the face of Carter. Carter McPhee.

Carter is Alexis, boyfriend. They only just recently started dating over the Summer. Sadly they started becoming close towards January of this year after a New Years party, and he has had it out for me. The worst part is Alexis just watches. At first I expected her as a friend to maybe say something. But she didn't. And when they started dating, after it all; that hurt me the most. It wasn't like he changed in between those months, he'll he got worse. Slowly finding what hurts me the most and using it.

This isn't the first time he has made comments on my food either. Before when it was just Alexis and myself I would bring a meal, sandwich, fruit and a snack. Now I have cut down to a bag of cucumbers and two Oreos. They say cucumbers are great metabolism fasting food.

Staring at the ziplock I suddenly felt self-conches. "Sure" I mumbled, but when my gaze was finally back the two were already in conversation. I sighed putting the half eaten Oreo back in the bag and tossed the bag into my backpack. I could feel tears brimming my eyes.
Goddam-it. Don't let him see it effects you.
Still leaning down facing my backpack away from the both of their sight I used my thumb to wipe any tears that threatened to spill. Closing my eyes and taking in a deep breath then releasing I grew the strength to face back to the conversation I wasn't involved in. So I tapped the table hoping time would go by maybe just a bit quicker.

Crater looked at me, "Good for you, you know most people our age don't do anything about being obese but I can see a change" and then he had the nerve to smile. It wasn't a real smile, but a smile that knew he just hurt me. My eyes darted to Alexis who just sat there looking between us, no emotion of pitty or sadness. Unreadable.

Quickly I got up swinging my bag over my shoulder; while wishing I had the guts to hit him in the head with it first; and left.

I continued sniffing my nose trying to hold on just a little bit longer. So focused on trying to stay strong I bumped shoulders with someone on my rush out.

"Watch were your going" the deep voice said annoyed. I was to focused on staying strong to apologize or at least see whom it was.

And when I finally made it. Finally locked myself in the empty bathroom stall. I cried. Silently so no one could hear me; but enough to let it out.

I think silent cries are the worst too. It's basically letting everything out, with a fear of getting caught being weak. In a weak moment.

The tears started to become dry before third class bell would come. Although my tears were ending my bottom lip quivered still. And I let all my emotions go in science before leaving for the last two classes of the day.

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My eyes were red from crying for the start of third class but faded within to first half an hour. Third really took awhile to get through, and by the time fourth came around it was already done. So thankful I took my car to school today as soon as we were dismissed by final bell, it was like I turned into the flash and took off, ignoring Alexis who was coming to my locker as I was leaving.

Honestly I cried everything I had out at lunch. Right now I wasn't sad, but I sure as hell wasn't happy. I felt emotionless. I was surprisingly fine being this way, when I came home my mom just asked basic questions and I was able to lie about if the certain person gave me a hard time. And this time I didn't break into tears not even halfway into my lie.

Currently I sat with my legs brought up close to my chest watching, Josh Tryhane uploads playlist. Because I was in that type of mood.

AUTHORS NOTE
Augh late update so sorry!
For some reason I was thinking today
was Friday?! Summer brain.
Wow, okay.
This was.....
hard.
I had an idea as to what I wanted
for this chapter, and I think I did an
okay job of getting it across. But nearing the
end I was honestly having a hard time
with writers block, and then putting
the things in my mind/brain into
words and on the 'page'.
Anyway
Vote of you feel it's deserving
Or because you just want to give your finger a workout
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