Losing You...

Why Now?

Four years is what it took

For you to finally speak to me and finally look.

To look at the hurt, look at the pain

And all of the things you did to me.

Friday was Winter Ball

And we both seemed surprised that we saw each other at all.

You with your boyfriend and me with my date

Both of us in our dresses and peacoats trying to stay warm as we waited for the clock to turn to 8.

You spotted me at the front of the line shivering from the cold

After 4 years we finally made eye contact, in which I thought was very bold.

You smiled and said I looked really pretty

I smiled and said thanks, but didn't know if I should believe.

We made small talk until the doors opened and let everyone in

You told me that you hope I have fun and I told you the same.

You gave me a short but meaningful hug before we went inside

I felt like you were my best friend again when I looked into your eyes.

I could see the kid version of you and I when we first met

In second grade, that is something we will never forget.

I wonder maybe you came to realize that we have 6 months until we graduate

That maybe if you told me your sorry now that it wouldn't be too late.

Maybe you realized that you made a big mistake

That night at winter ball you gained respect from me.

You see the problem with me is I forgive to easily

If you were to walk up to me today or any day explain and say your sorry.

I would forgive you...

Well six more months and we will see

Maybe we can be friends again before we leave.

I want to move on, forget what happened in the past

I just want my best friend back.

What made you talk to me that very night

What pushed you to hug me and say hi

One question I must ask and what I've been wondering all week is

Why now, why did you decide to talk to me? What is going through your head?

My heart is telling me to try but my head is telling me maybe I shouldn't.

But when it comes to me my heart always wins

I'm now hoping that we can slowly work on becoming friends again.

I'm ready to put this whole thing behind us

Before these six months of school catch up and find us.

Why now? I ask again

Why now? My long lost friend.