Memories of the Forgotten (ManXMan)

CHAPTER 19

MASON POV

"I don't remember anything."

As those words uttered by a trembling and vulnerable voice registered in my brain, it was like puzzle pieces started to rearrange themselves and everthing seemed to fit together.

Pierce's confused and perplexed face when I first woke up flashed through my mind and it clicked. So that's why.. That's why he reacted that way..

And now as I looked at this man, kneeling in front of me and desperately clutching onto me, I couldn't help but cry. Just how cruel can the fates be..

I slowly raised my hands and gently cupped his face. My fingers wiped away his tears as he looked at me longingly. "Oh Pierce.. I'm so sorry. It must have been hard on you."

His tiny nod was all I got as an answer,he was too busy crying. But one question was still bugging me and so I asked, "Why did you hide it from me?"

Taking a shuddering breath, he answered. "I was scared. My mind may have forgotten about you, but something inside me remembered. Seeing you lying on that bed that day, I knew there was something. And when you opened your eyes and looked straight at me, I was petrified. I wanted to run into your arms, I wanted to cry in happiness for the fact that you woke up, but I didn't even know you. And when I finally learned the truth about us, I thought that if you knew that I lost my memories, you'd definitely fight for me and I knew I'll lose. I'm this shaken up already, just a little push from you I might just throw rationality out the window. I'm sorry for being a coward Mason. I'm so sorry.."

I just hugged him to me as everything he said started to sink in my muddled brain. I can't believe this is happening. What sins did I commit in my past life to deserve something like this.. I wanted to shout all kinds of profanities to whoever is up there!

And as we stayed there, unmoving and simply lost in our own thoughts, a realization dawned on me.

Sobs suddenly escaped from my lips startling Pierce and making him looked at me worriedly. "Mason! Are you okay??" He asked.

"Thank you.." I whispered.

"Huh?? For what?"

"You didn't abandon me. You didn't leave me behind."

"Mason.. But that's exactly what I did." Pierce said with disgust in his voice.

"You didn't do it on your own accord though. You were blind to everything and was lied to. MY Pierce loved me until his last conscious moment. You uttered those words before you closed your eyes. S-See? MY Pierce loved m-me till the end." I wailed with tears running down my face.

Pierce kept looking at me with his brows furrowed. "Why do you keep saying 'MY PIERCE'?"

"Because you are no longer mine. Because you are no longer the Pierce that loved me. It hurts, but you know what? Knowing that you didn't fall out of love for me, that you didn't chose to leave me behind when I needed you the most, is more than enough. What you said earlier that I'd fight even more for you if I knew the truth before, that may have been true, but no more. I cannot do that anymore." I explained to him.

"Is it because I'm married now?"

I patted the space beside me to prompt him to sit beside me, the man has kneeled long enough. As he sat down and settled himself, I held his hand in mine. "Yes.. But more importantly because I can never fully feel happiness knowing that I ripped it from someone else, especially if that someone else is an important person to me as well."

"But what about you? Your own happiness?"

"The love you gave me and all the memories we shared together will be my source of happiness. That's enough for me. I knew you'll be okay, you were already doing fine before I came along all over again. You have Matthew, and he has you. I'll still be with you but in a different role. So I'll be okay. You'll be okay. We'll all be okay." I stated firmly to him and more importantly to myself.