The Story Of Us #wattys2016

《8》

~ July 23rd, 2010. ~

The last few days have been really stressing.

After I talked to Louis and told Angelina I wasn't dating Zain, she ran to him. She have been trying to get him ever since. Not only him, but Louis too. She have been trying to get in his pants since then. She's such a bitch. I even wrote a song to her. It goes on like this:

"Angelina's got a pretty face
And really long brown hair
Lives somewhere in some wide open space
I've never been there
I guess some people come around and purpose she
But I don't 'cause

I have always been a bit reckless
And I am not your typical princess
I'm fine just a bit of a mess
And I'm not perfect you could say
I wasn't brought up that way

Just watched Stephen run across the field
Watched him catch the ball
He's got everything you'd wanna be
He's funny, dark and tall
Watch him run across to Angelina
But I don't cause

I have always been a bit reckless
And I am not your typical princess
I'm fine just a bit of a mess
And I'm not perfect you could say
I wasn't brought up that way

I have always been a bit reckless
And I am not your typical princess
I'm fine just a bit of a mess
And I'm not perfect you could say
I wasn't brought up that way."

But it's not finished yet.

Well, after my nightmare, and my panic attack, people have been around me, asking me how I am every five minutes.

I've been a lot more ashamed of my body since then, as well, but Zain helps me through this. I like the way he wants me. I like how he says he needs me, after so long, he still says that every night, by text when we're not together, or by my ear when I'm sleeping in his house.

I mean, I'm not blind.

I'm not a model. I've never been one.

But it doesn't matter now, because I'm home, and I'm taking medicines, and it's gonna be okay.

I've spent 24 hours in my room, with Zain, watching every Disney movie we could find.

Now we're simply laying in my bed looking at the ceiling, as I wonder if he means everything that he says.

"Did you tell Angel that you're dating Louis?"

"Angel?"

"Angelina, Tay."

"Why did you call her angel?"

"Because we're friends?"

"You're friends with that bitch, Zain?"

"She's not a bitch, Taylor, she's really nice."

"What did you tell her after she told you that?"

"What?"

"That I said that I'm dating Louis."

"That it was true."

"What?"

"I told her I was single, Taylor."

"What? Why?"

"Because if that's how you want to know where her boundaries are, you'll see where mine are as well."

"Wait... You're mad at me?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Because you're paranoid. What do you think? That I'm gonna fūck her or what?"