Love it (BTS Suga Fanfic)

Chapter 16

Yoongi's Pov

Somehow I did feel pain in my chest. Plus nothing felt the same without Sofia. I missed her. The nights felt longer and days shorter without her. When she was next to me it felt like there is no day no night no nothing. Just her. I wanted all of her to be mine and just with one word I fucked up everything. Now I was alone in my room laying on my bed dwelling in pity that she ran away. I told her the truth about my dreams and I had slept with few girls before her. And just like a sudden earthquake Yuri came in and ruined all the things I had with Sofia. Now everything was a faded memory. A cloudy night sky and loneliness made it worse. There was no moonlight to shape Sofia's sleeping face and there wasn't Sofia who I loved to admire when she slept next to me. She always looked so peaceful next to me. It looked like nothing could ruin her sleep. But nothing lasts.

I turned my head to look out the window next to my desk. The night sky was showing how much I have fucked up. It was cloudy and it looked like it was going to rain. I let out a sigh grabbing on to my blanket gripping it tightly. This pain was unbearable it was burning my chest and stinging my eyes. I hated this. I hated my stupidity. I regret what I said to Sofia. She didn't deserve to be sad and broken. How could I let her go? I waited for her. All those dreams about her. No, the dreams weren't that good, she was better in real life.

I chuckled at the memory of her cooking for me. She wanted to make pasta for me but then she called Beth to ask if she has done it the right way. But she put the pasta in the water what wasn't boiling yet. Beth was laughing at her that she did it wrong. But then she whispered to her best friend that she is so embarrassed about herself because I was right next to her. I loved to see her blush and try for me. This memory made me smile and remember the good times.

Now I am too scared to face her. I was too scared that she won't take me back. I knew she thought that we weren't together as a couple but I'm not that kind of guy who would ask the question. I think it just comes naturally if I'm staying with her then I will. Forever. I'm not cheesy like other guys. Taehyung, that pabo, bought lots of flowers and sweets for Beth to ask her to be his girlfriend but in the end, he ate the sweets and forgot the flowers at the flower shop. He is that dumb. But seeing my friend coming home heartbroken just like that, I felt worse about my friend. It was Yuri who ruined the relationship for Tae and Beth. I don't remember when I ever was with Yuri. She was nothing to me. Maybe a one night stand.

A knock on my bedroom door disturbed my train of thoughts about Sofia and everything that has happened past few months. I turned my head to look at the person who decided to visit me. My eyes widen and I sat up on my bed.

"Come in," I said. Making sure that my bed is not that messed up.

"You should talk to Sofia," Beth said taking a seat on the chair next to the desk what was full with papers. I have been writing some kind of poems or they were lyrics I didn't know.

"I'm afraid that she won't listen to me," I looked down on my hands.

"She would. If she looks like she doesn't, she is. You need to tell her that you are sorry. I know that it was stupid what you did but still she is waiting for an apology. Maybe it would take time for her to take in that you apologized. But trust me she wants to run to you like a little puppy who has seen a bone." Beth looked through the papers running her hand on the desk. Seeing the dust her nose wrinkled. "Plus you are the one who did stupid things."

I observed in my mind what Beth was trying to say.

"Don't think much. Buy some wine and go to her. Talk it out and it will be okay."

"But maybe you can talk to her-"

"No." She protested, " You don't understand. I can't solve your problem. I hate seeing her like this. Crying at night, thinking that she is not good enough for you. You should know how it is. Because of Taehyung. Have you ever seen him?"

I shook my head. I haven't seen my friend for a couple of days after seeing him get in a fight with the girl who was glaring at me right now.

"See? I'm heartbroken too but I try to help my best friend and you. Because Sofia is more important to me than a stupid argument I had with Tae. I know that I need to go to him and say sorry too but now I need to fix this. Before I go back home."

I didn't notice that the room was still dark. And the small dim light came from the window.

"Tomorrow, I'm going to see Tae. Her parents are going out and her brother is going to stay with his friend. You two are going to be alone together. You insist to her that you need to talk and show her that you have bought some wine. Soft spot." Beth winked at me and giggled at her joke. I didn't even know if that was a joke. I remained motionless.

"And then it's all in your hands what you say and do."

My door burst open and Taehyung ran in. His eyes widen at Beth who was looking out the window now ignoring my annoying best friend.

"B, please listen to me," He sounded so desperate. I haven't seen him like this. Tae was always annoying everyone and still made us all smile even if he had some things happening in his life. I was the only one from our boys' group that knew what was happening in Tae's family at the time when we all moved to Seoul to learn in at a new school. It was a hard time for him but even then Taehyung was smiling his bright smile. But seeing him like this - hurt and sad. It made me realize that we all haven't seen his inside world. How much he was suffering. And it made me look at my problem and it seems like a little piece of shit compared what Taehyung was going through.

"V, take Beth to eat tomorrow. Let her cool down," I said to Tae. My gaze fell on Beth who looked at me with this look what said 'thank you'. "Do you agree?"

Beth just nodded her head. Just then I saw Taehyung smile. It lit up the dark room and it gave me a little hope that I will get Sofia to trust me again and we could start everything again.