Love it (BTS Suga Fanfic)

Chapter 17 (M)

A/N: Warning! Smutty smut...

I was alone in my room. Beth left me because she had a meeting with Taehyung. I was a bit pissed that she left me even though she came here to see me. But in another way, I was happy that she had found someone that she cared about and someone who made her happy and smiley. Not that she was sad all the time or something but she had always brightened others day but no one really tried to ask her if she was okay. Now that she has Taehyung it has to be okay.

"Sofia! We are going out and your brother is at his friend's!" I heard my mom yell from the first floor. With a thud, the front door closed leaving me completely alone in the house. My parents were getting on normal terms again. Maybe they didn't talk to each other that much as they used to but still, they didn't fight anymore and it made things a bit better than before. There is no loud shouting and crying anymore. Just a bitter silence. I hope after this night they will be okay again - talking and smiling. I want this family to be family again.

I didn't know what to do. I had the house for myself. But I wished that there was some wine on my desk. I would turn up my music and drink and probably drown in my memories. Nothing seemed better than that right now.

I entered my bathroom. I looked at the mirror. My eyes were blank and hair in a mess. To look a bit better and even feel better about myself I brushed my hair and put a bit of makeup. I knew I wouldn't go anywhere anyway but it made me feel a little bit better and made me smile too.

I gazed in my own eyes when the doorbell rang. I was confused who would've come at this time.

Running to the door I tripped a bit but I gained my balance again. My hand turned the doorknob with full force I opened the door just to see a pair of dark brown eyes and blond messy hair. I gasped and tried to slam the door close but a hand stopped me.

"Go away, Suga," I groaned pushing on the door. I was struggling against his hand. I was pushing with my whole body but he stopped me with his hand. Was I that weak?

"Listen, Sofia, please," Suga pleaded, struggling against my attempt to close the door.

"But I don't want to hear shit from you."

I huffed and stopped pushing and so did he.

"Please can we talk?" He asked. " I got a bottle of wine."

My eyes widen. How did he know that I want wine? Can he read minds? And how did he get one? We are underage after all.

But without listening to my brain I let the poor guy in. He thanked me but I responded to him with just an eye roll. I was annoyed again because now I wasn't alone anymore, plus I was with the person I didn't want to see. And yet I wanted to jump on him without him apologizing to me.

Suga sat down on the sofa in the living room. I followed his actions but I sat down further away from him.

"I wanted to apologize. It was stupid of me to say that you are no one. It just came out of my mouth. I never talk before I think. But this was a mistake. You are special to me, I swear. If you weren't I wouldn't have come here to say I'm sorry. And I do regret what I said." His voice was getting desperate and it saddened me. But I still wanted to hear what he want to say to me.

"I'm sorry about Yuri. She is just a past shadow that I forgot about and she just came back just like that and I didn't know what to do. I hoped you didn't come down to see who came to see me. Before you, my life was just plain boring. You made it colourful like a painter. And you are my painter. You are my world's painter. You draw it more enjoyable and more relaxing for me. I need you. Please Sof, please forgive me," Suga bowed his head low in front of me.