Pearls And Beads That Make Us Bleed

1. Lies and Goodbyes

I feel as though that any day I'll just break

Into a million pieces across the floor

As if I was glass, sharp, and fragile

Letting the rest in when they break down my door

I wish they could know the words unsaid

Do they hear my muffled screams at night?

Into my pillow, cries and pain, no sleep

You made me insomniatic, now I write

I write about my feelings, and you know

This makes me feel better, I feel whole

My silence will be heard through the words

On the page, my heart and soul

So today, I went to school, like always

And I got pushed into lockers 2 times

Called 53 of the repeating counting names

And what helps are the rymes

The teacher called on me in class

She asked me to do this problem

But I have enough of my own

My life is a broken record album

It plays soft music sometimes, 

As if it were a normal CD

But then it squeaks and stops,

Was it ever fixed? Hardly

Why does everybody have to be so perfect?

And here I am, an anomaly to those around me

They are all dolls, lifeless plastic

Good looks, foul mouth, the real life Barbie

It was a horrible day, why does it have to be?

It was a regular, depressing afternoon

My boyfriend broke it off, and said I was ugly

I knew then I should end it all soon

Why, why, am I so insecure?

Why am I surrounded, told, fed so many lies?

I know when I end everything hurting me, 

There will be, not from anybody, any goodbyes

Angela