Pearls And Beads That Make Us Bleed

4. Broken Key Too Lost

I started something new today, did you know?

I started to cut today, but you didn't realize

That I spent all night working on it

The scars on my arms, the tears in my eyes

I feel like a doll, with a broken, shattered past

Tossed into the chopper, cut up, no longer real

And how something so ugly you never notice what's inside

You notice the chops, what's your deal?

My eyes have been bloodshot,

Dark circles underneath it all,

I feel like school never ends,

An eternity sweeping the halls

You came up to me today, without thinking

That maybe I was one piece from breaking

An old ex boyfriend, you pushed and shoved

You headed for the beads and went for the taking

I told you no and slapped your face

Boy, I misjudged your anger and rage

Was it you, I wanted boarded up away?

Or was it me, that I needed in the cage?

I scare myself often, scared of who I am

Because I like nothing about me, anything in mind

And I'm like a lonely door, locked shut

With a broken key too lost to find

Angela