Pearls And Beads That Make Us Bleed

6. A Deadly Shower

I've become friends with the pearls, that gift

The beads on my wrist dig deep into my cuts

It's not too bad, I actually like it, it's

Reminding me of the pain I've come to lust

I want to close my eyes

That way I'll be blind for good

Because I feel like that now,

I really do, I really should

It hurts, but I relish in the pain

I'm not looking for reprieve, I'm looking for life

In my blood, there must be something

Something that's real, I can find with a knife

The lights burnt out today at school

I felt like that was my heart's last, the final straw

I know only one who'd miss me

The one who gave me the pearls, Grandma

I feel like the jewelry is the only thing I've come to love

Because anything else is just killing me slower

It's not making me stronger, this makes me weak

The bridge waters sound tempting, a deadly shower

Angela