Forbidden Love

Five

If i show you my flaws, if i could'nt be strong

Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same

Im humming the song in my phone as i walk my way downstairs. Naisipan kong maglakad lakad muna sa village since hindi ako nakapag jogging. Nakakaboring din sa bahay dahil may klase si Iya at nasa office pa ang mga magulang ko.

Mommy was once a housewife. But since Ica and me are grown up, bumalik na lang si Mommy sa office since kaya naman na namin ni Iya. Nabobore din sya dito sa bahay.

"O ayan na pala si Erin" mula sa nakasalpak na ear phones ay narinig kong sabi ni nanay meng. Kaisa isang katulong namin sa bahay at pamilya na din.

Nakita ko si Jett sa likod nito na syang nagpawala ng ngiti ko. Im upset at him. Alam ko na may karapatan syang ituring ako bilang isa sa mga babae nya. I thrown myself to him and i felt cheap for that. Pero sana ay irespeto nya pa din ako dahil mag pinsan naman kami at magkapamilya.

"Erin.." ngumiti sya na hindi ko tinugon. I lower the sounds of my music. Lumapit sya sa akin at iniabot ang boquet ng chupa chups. I wanna hit myself because i want to smile. Galit ako dapat. "Lemon flavor yan, favorite mo"

"Masakit ngipin ko" i snnaped. Labag na labag sa loob ko ang pagsasabi niyon dahil takam na takam ako sa chupa chups.

"Kikiss ko, para gagaling na" lambing nya. I cant help but to reminis our old times. Ganitong ganito sya maglambing sakin noon "ibabati mo na ko? Ibabati mo na ko ha?" Udyok nya na parang nang-uuto ng bata.

Hinablot ko ang boquet at inilagay sa center table.

"Mamaya ko na kakainin.." i said cold and pass through him.

"Erin.." malambing na sabi nya pa din. Nakasunod pa rin sakin ang loko.

I keep on walking as he place himself infront of me. Naglalakad sya patalikod kaya magkaharap kami.

"Im sorry.. i know i should'nt have insult you" he said softly. He almost puke sinserity. I did'nt speak up and keep on walking.

"Erin naman.."

"If you would just offer me to be your fvck buddy again.. trash it. Para mo na ring ipinilit na mananalo ang GS sa Cleveland" irap ko na tinawanan nito.

"You're still weird" tawa nya "biruin mong naikonekta mo ang away natin sa basketball.. and hey, im Cleveland fan too. I hate Chicken Curry"

"Ano ring konekta non?"

"Ang konekta non ibabati mo na ko" ngumisi sya.

"I said spare me Jett!" Mariing sabi ko.

"Ok.." he heave a deep sigh.. "i dont do relationship. I just get a good sex. Woman come and go. I dont deal with complicated shits such as love beacuse i fvcking know how that thing can fvcking ruin me and im afraid i cant get up again.. i once lose Rose, Erin. I dont want to lose you too" again, the sincerity in his voice eats me up. His eyes we're soft and emotional.

"You wont lose me Jett" i whisper.

"With the situation we have?" Umismid sya "i dont think so Erin. For sure paglalayuin nila tayo pag nalaman nila"

"'Yun ay kung papayag ka na paglayuin nila tayo" sabi ko dala ang lahat ng lakas ng loob na meron ako. Incest is wrong. It's imoral. Kasalanan sa mata ng tao at maya ng Diyos. But i rather burn rather than to live a life without him. Alam ko na gusto din ako ni Jett. We should't have talking about this now if he's not.

"Are you really willing to take this mess with me?" He said seriously. I nodd. "As long as im with you"

Ngumiti sya sakin. Ngiti na para bang nagpaliwanag ng mundo. This is getting korni but i know where this conversation is going so i cant help but grinning.

"You win.. you're my girlfriend now" naiiling na sabi nya pero abot tainga naman ang ngiti.