its been a week of no touching and looking , i feel like cameron's been doing better and so have i. its been hard for him and I've noticed like theres some days where i can feel his eyes burning my back.
i turn back at him to see him flinch.
"its hard" is all he says and walks away.
i felt bad of course, he had a crush on me, well maybe still does.
school starts next month I'm not excited but whatever.
i walked up and walked across he hall to the bathroom when i heard heavy breathing. i looked in the cracked door of cameron's room and saw he was angry. he began to talk.
"why did this fucking happen! why did she come in my life, she fucked up everything, only if she knew how hard it was not to touch her and hold her"
i pushed the door open.
he quickly got up and looked the other way.
i then walked to him and held him. he then turned around and held my face.
"please" he breathed. i nodded.
the next thing i know he is kissing me. to be honest i missed his lips, missed his hands searching for the lust he wanted.
he stopped, for the first time.
"i can't, but thank you"
"im glad you stopped yourself" i gave a small smile and walked away.
im not angry he stopped, thats good! i think.
1 month later.
he stopped touching me and holding me and kissing me. he only side hugs me and smiles but goes back to his phone and talks to his friend. school starts today which I'm okay starting with, I'm going to be a junior, I'm kind of excited but I'm going to miss my only friend. Jackson.
i eat breakfast and kiss my mom goodbye and walk out the door.
jackson then comes up and picks me up in his nice car.
"hey jackson"
"hi amber"
"this is the beauty"
"she sure is!!!" he laughs.
i join him and get in.
we get to school and walk in and find my locker and i see jacksons is next to mine. i then see cameron walk in and get his locker which is on the other side of mine?
"are you even up there?" i say as i look up at the heavens.
"is there a problem sister?" cameron smirks.
"why is you're locker next to time"
"its fate" he says and walks away smiling.
"lets go jackson before i faint"
"hahaha dramatic " he laughs and takes my hand.
it might sound weird but jackson and i always hold hands which give me a feeling whenever i do but i don't mind it.
its going to be a long day.
