KILLER INSIDE ME

Chapter 6

"Sort of Like Mommie Dearest...."

Zavian

Time stood still for Zavian. He couldn't move or even hear much. The only thing he could hear clearly was his heart thumping loud inside his chest and the many different voices inside his head spewing things at the same time. His body felt numb. Numb to everything that came out of their mouths. He could see the lips of Trenton, Prince and Skylar flapping but couldn't hear one word they said. Sweat was profusely running down his body, his face was plum red and every vein in his body was poking out. He was passed the point of being angry and working on his way to being full blown livid.

Hearing his mother's voice had pushed a forbidden red button inside of him. The voice haunted him off and on throughout his life. As soon as he found some type of happiness, the voice would come and kill it. Nothing about that changed as he stood there. He'd found his happiness again in Melody. She made him feel warm inside. There was no cloud of darkness over him when he was around her. But now, standing in front of his door with his hands balled so tight, they began to cut off his circulation, a gloomy cloud was hovering over him. The cloud was built up of hot air, tension and hatred towards the chocolate woman standing mere inches away from him.

The scent of her favorite perfume, White Diamonds by Elizabeth Taylor, filled his nose and brought back more memories. The scent was reminiscent of the times he ran into her arms looking for comfort only to find bitterness and coldness. She was never a safe haven for him like normal mothers. The only safe haven he had, was his friends and siblings. His mother wasn't one and his father damn sure wasn't one. Zavian's friends and siblings were the only thing that kept him sane as a child. Without them, he would've lost his mind and killed himself a long time ago.

"Zay..." The calling of his nickname coming from her, broke his temporary deafness and caused goosebumps to form on his skin. The voices inside his head stopped immediately and he glanced back at her with a look that could kill over a million burly men. Eve still looked the same as he remembered. Her natural curly hair was still shoulder length and she hadn't aged much since the last time the two saw each other. The only noticeable difference in her, was she had a certain glow on her flawless skin. There was something more happier and warm about her.

Tears formed in Eve's eyes and her lips began to tremble at the sight of his hateful eyes. "Za-Zay, I was sick back then and so was he but God has healed me..." Zavian cut his eyes low as the voices came back to his head, "God has healed her? Man what God she serving? The same God that let her sit back all those years and watch as your daddy molested you? Fuck that bitch" His nostrils began to flare and the way he could hear his heart inside his ear, was not the least bit healthy. His hands were still curled into a fist despite the sweat trying to break them apart while he tuned her out and listened to the voices inside his head. "You should kill her for what she did. You can't even fuck a girl without thinking about that hillbilly ass mothafucka touching you. Kill that bitch and him and maybe you'll be able to fuck Melody good"

Eve's warm hand touching his shoulder, caused the voices to stop and him to flinch. "Zay, it's okay. It's just m-" Zavian smacked her hand down and turned around to look her in the eyes. "Zavian, I know I don't deserve your forgiveness and I know he doesn't either but he's on his deathbed and he wants to see you...." Zavian turned his face up and squinted angrily at her. "You think I give a fuck about him being on his deathbed? You think I give a motha-fuck about that?" He stepped closer to her and Trenton grabbed hold of his bad arm. Still, he snatched his arm back despite the sharp pain that came from it. "I was on my deathbed for years calling out to this God you serve and calling out to you..." His once angry demeanor began to crumble as burning tears came to his eyelids. "Calling out for help but you didn't even hear me because you didn't want to. If your God can forgive that then fuck him"