Sleep

Part 9

-sorry it took my a while to post this. I will be posting about one chapter a week now but there are only a few more chapter left of this story-

I followed him into the kitchen where he started to make coffee.
"Do you want any?" He offered. He stood in his kitchen a large counter in the middle of the kitchen was between us.
"No thank you." I said politely. He grabbed a mug from the cabinet.
"I have a bad feeling about this conversation." He was pouring his coffee now and he took a sip even though it was piping hot.
"We need to break up. It's the most logic thing to do. You and Jorm are best friends and work together. I don't want to ruin that relationship." As I said this I couldn't look him in the eyes because I knew if I did I would take back everything I said.
"I know you aren't going to change your mind on this but I need you to know that this would not ruin my relationship with Jorm. I was stupid back in high school and I thought it would but Jorm will get over it. I really like you Hayley. I might even love you." I was crying now so he came over to hug me. My head rested on his chest. He just let me cry. When I was done I looked up at him and kissed him. He kissed back. I pulled away quickly and started toward the door.
"Hayley please come back." I heard him yell but I walked out the door. My vision became blurry again with tears but I walked faster until I got home.
I quickly opened the door and slammed it shut. I pressed my back against the door and let out a loud sigh.
"Are you ok?" I heard Jorm say from the living room. I kept my tears from running and nodded no. I didn't want to talk. Especially not to him. I ran to my room closed the door and fell onto my bed. I needed to sleep. I didn't know why I was this upset. I got under my blankets and just laid there. I wish I wasn't in this bed and I wish I wasn't alone but I had made my choice and I knew it was for the best. I just hadn't liked a guy like this in so long and I don't think I had ever liked a guy in this way before.
I woke up and looked at my phone. I had about 6 missed calls all from Andy. It was 6pm. I had sleep for quit some time. I heard a light knock on my door and saw Mari walk in. I sat up a little bit and she walked to my bed and gave me a hug.
"Are you ok?" She asked as she pet my head.
"Right now not really. But I will be ok. I just liked him so much." I heard another knock from my door. I looked over and saw Jorm leaning against the door frame. Mari got up and gave him a weak smile. He came over and sat at the end of my bed as Mari left the room.
"I know that you don't want to talk to me right now but I'm sorry I acted like a dick last night. Hayley, you are practically my sister and Andy is my best friend. I was upset the neither of you felt like you could tell me about your relationship. I have seen Andy break girls' hearts and I am afraid that he will break yours. Also I was a bit taken off guard when I walked into my own house and you guys were..."
"It's ok. I'm sorry I didn't tell you but you don't have to worry because I broke up with him this morning. I should be focusing on getting a job and an apartment. Dating can wait for now."
"Well if you want to be with Andy you can. I want you to make the decision to not date him. Don't make the decision based on what you think that I want you to do."
"I'm not." I lied right through my teeth. Jorm had helped me get out here and has helped me through so much in my life. This would just be the best thing to do.

2 months later
My eyes fluttered open. I turned toward my alarm clock which read 10 am. It was Friday which meant I didn't have to go to work. I worked as a secretary for some random office building. I just forwarded calls and signed people into the building. The job was easy and paid well enough for me to get an apartment. I shared it with my friend Gabby. She was extremely nice and introduced me to some of her friends so I at at least felt like I had more friends then her,Mari, and Jorm. Mari stopped by about three times a week. I saw Jorma once a week. I spent weekends mostly alone. Everyone was busy and had plans. I never minded. I got out of bed and walked to my bathroom. I looked in the mirror before brushing my teeth. I was wearing pajama shorts, a tank top, and Andy's blue sweatshirt. When I was sad or upset for no reason I would put on Andy's sweatshirt to help me fall asleep. It still smelled a little bit like him. I strolled out to the living room. My hair in a messy bun and I sat on the couch. Gabby was in the kitchen and fixed me up a bowl of cereal and brought it over to me. She sat next to me on our large black couch.
"David and I are going out with some friends tonight. You are welcome to come." David was her boyfriend who was actually pretty cool. This happened every weekend as well. She was always nice enough to offer to take me out with her and her friends but I never had an interest in going so I always politely declined.
"No thanks. I am just going to chill here." I said and took another bite of cereal. The day went by quickly. I showered and put on a different tank top and some sweatpants. I switched off between watching movies and reading a book. I was in my room when I heard Gabby call my name to the kitchen. It was 7pm and I had ordered Chinese food. I pulled on Andy's sweatshirt and made my way to the kitchen. I heard David and Gabby talking to someone. It didn't phase me because I just assumed that one of their other friends was here. I walked into the kitchen and Gabby was smiling at me and I turned and saw David sitting talking to Andy at the table.
"You have a guest." I stared at Andy who was still talking to David.
"You probably could have told me the Andy that you dumped was Andy fucking Samberg." She whispered to me. I didn't respond. I was in such shock that he was here that I couldn't think of anything to say. I watched as Andy laughed and joked with David and then he turned and saw me. His eyes lit up. I held back a smile. I didn't want him to know that I was happy to see him.
"Andy. Uh what are you doing here?" I finally said after an awkward silence.
"I was in the neighborhood and I haven't seen you in a while so I thought I would stop by. Sorry I should have called." There was another long pause.
"Well we have plans. There is Chinese food on the counter. It was great meeting you Andy. Have a great night!" Gabby grabbed her purse and her and David left.
I got two plates out of the cabinet and put them on the counter where I sat on a stool and started to serve myself food.
"You can come over here and eat some food." He nervously walked over and sat at a stool across from me. About 10 minutes into eating I put my fork down and stared at him causing him to stare back.
"How did you know where I live?" This wasn't a question that had even dawned on me at first but I was curious about it now.
"Jorma pointed it out to me one time while we were driving."he continued eating even though I have him a confused look.
"So you just thought it was a good idea to randomly stop by?"
"Well I don't think it was my best idea ever." He laughed awkwardly.
"I'm not doing anything tonight so you are welcome to stay." He felt more comfortable now that I had actually offered for him to stay. We finished eating and went to the living room.
"I guess we can watch a movie. We kind of always end up doing that anyway." I laughed and he just smiled. It was the same old routine. The same thing just kept happening over and over again. This time though we watched the movie and he didn't put his arms around me and I didn't purposely lean on him so he would make a move.We stayed on our separate sides of the couch and laughed at the funny parts and joked about the movie. When it was over he stood up to leave. I didn't want him to leave but I don't think I could have stopped him.
"I'm going to go. It's getting kind of late. We should hang out again. I miss you."
"Yeah definitely I miss you too." I stood up and faced him. I did not know what would be appropriate. A hug? A handshake? A kiss? I stood there staring at him trying to decide. We both just started toward the door. And then as he stood about to open it and say a final goodbye I said.
"Wait. You just came over to watch a movie with me? That's it? I live like 30 minutes from you. I'm confused as to why you were in this neighborhood in the first place." I sounded kind of bitchy but I wanted some truthful answers.
"I thought I was going to get away with this but I guess I'm not. For weeks I have kind of been sad and upset because I like you and you broke my heart. Tonight I was at Jorm and Mari's I had a drink and I wanted to see you. They told me where you were after I begged for about an hour. I miss you and Jorm even said we could be together but you still ignored my calls and texts and I would try to come to see you at Mari and Jorm's but they didn't let me see you. Obviously I want more then just to watch a movie with you but I felt like that was enough for tonight. I already surprised you and put you in an uncomfortable position by showing up here. I have tickets to a concert tomorrow night if you want to join me." My face got red. I didn't think that he liked me as much as I liked him. I was still afraid though. Afraid that he would break my heart. But I guess I already broke his so if he did break my heart we would be even.
"I'll go." I knew I shouldn't but I wanted to. I just knew that I was better off keeping to myself but I couldn't help it. I love being with him.
"I can stop by here tomorrow around 6. Is that good? It's pretty casual dress. Nothing fancy." He was trying to contain his smile but he couldn't. I also couldn't stop myself from hugging him. As I did I breathed in his scent. God I missed it. I was so close to inviting him to my room just so we could sleep together but I knew it wouldn't be right. He was trying to be a gentlemen and take me out. I pulled away from him and flashed him a smile which he returned. We let go of each other.
"Sounds good. I can't wait." He slipped his hands into my sweatshirt pockets and chuckled.
"I wasn't going to say anything but I did have feeling you might still like me a little bit if you still wear my sweatshirt." I blushed like crazy because I hadn't even noticed this entire time. He winked at me and then left. I couldn't wait for tomorrow