Fix You | Newt x Reader | Maze Runner AU Fanfiction

Chapter 10: Meant To Be

Saying I was exhausted was an understatement.

When I arrived back home after my last exam, I headed directly to my room and dropped on the bed. I fell asleep with my street clothes on and all.

During those last days after going to Newt's place, I studied so much that I felt like I couldn't learn anything else. I was so swamped out with information and everything that no matter how hard I tried to study more, I couldn't.

But I still did kind of good on the exams.

So when I woke up and knew I was finally free from all that stress, I smiled.

I groaned when I remembered that I was supposed to go out for dinner with my family, though. Mom and dad insisted that they wanted us to have dinner with a couple they met during their journey and their kids.

But that would be on the evening, I was free all morning and afternoon.

I rolled over in my bed, knowing I could sleep for as long as I wanted to, and closed my eyes again letting my thoughts lull me to sleep.

I wondered how Newt, Minho, Thomas and everyone were doing. If Thomas' leg had gotten better. If Minho was still mad at him because of it. If Newt cheered up after he was done with the finals.

Of course, I didn't expect him to be nonchalantly after it all.

Your insecurities don't disappear just because someone says a few nice things to you. It helps, of course, but it's never that easy. Those toxic thoughts we have about ourselves take time to get rid of.

Just like I was still hurt because of what happened with Dave and being insecure about that and so many things, Newt had to fight his demons too.

But I was determined to help him do it. I had discovered that the best way to do it was distracting him.

You get lazy, you get sad. Start giving up. Plain and simple.

That was why I was so grateful to have such great friends and family. Because they made me so happy even in my darkest times. Because they reminded me of the good things in life and made me forget about the bad things. Because they fixed me when I was broken.

Of course, cuddling and watching a TV show while eating chocolate ice cream was cathartic too. And that was exactly how Newt forgot about everything for a while that day.

I sniggered to myself when I realized how deep my sleepy thoughts were. Maybe because my mind was so exhausted that I was kind of delirious.

But as I tried to leave my mind blank, I gladly surrender to the sweet slumber.

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When I woke up next I figured I was alone because the whole house was silent.

Mom and dad were probably working, and Chuck was probably in school. I had the house for myself.

It was a week day, but college had given us a free week to recover from the exams, which I appreciated a lot. At least they did that right.

Embracing the spare time and being alone, I did whatever I felt like.

First I took a long and warm shower that relaxed me and washed away all the remaining stress from the finals.

Then I poured myself some cereal, which I ate with a smile on my face.

After that, since it had been a long time since I last did, I made a few leather bracelets –I had no idea why, but one of them reminded me of Newt. It seemed like he would wear it really well –and some origami and then I went to lie in my bed with some Coldplay in the background.