Novacane

Chapter 1- Life

A/N: Earthlings you should listen to the song at the speed 1.25 while you read this chapter because it just sets the mood of the story and it just feels like something Ambrosia would listen to pluuusss the quote for this chapter is from this song.

No past, no future, Lex luthor- Scarface-Jaden Smith

Life sucks. its quite a simple concept really. We're born and its almost like a wheel of fate is spun and if we're lucky we may get a life filled with trivial pain such as falling of your bike and scraping your knees or getting a cold, the worst thing to happen to you would be losing a pet or maybe a grandparent. However there's also the other side to this, this is what you may call a sort of living hell where if you're really lucky the worst thing that could happen to you is losing a parent either to death or a divorce, or maybe losing a leg or your voice, but if life really wants to demolish nearly every bit of you leaving only a small part of your humanity as some sort of mercy; then you're really unlucky, then you're a bit like me. Broken beyond recognition, and you're left with nightmares a constant reminder of the pain you have went through, almost like a keepsake from our dear friend Life...

I can hear their screams again, see their faces, mouths wide open with agony as the wolves devour their bodies, I can feel their pain again, it's an intense white hot pain that consumes me whole and this time I can't take it away no matter how hard I try; I look at my mother through my tear filled eyes her forest green orbs hold such agony and hate her mouth opens...

"Ro?, Ro?, Ro wake up"

All of a sudden my eyes open dried tears stain my cheeks, I look up to my brother, Alor looking down at me with tears in his eye.

"Hey, hey why are you crying" I wipe away his tears and look into his cerulean blue eyes filled with worry

"You were screaming in your sleep again and you took ages to wake up this time and I got scared that you'd never wake up"

"Al it's ok, i'm not going anywhere you know that"I wipe away his tears and kiss his cheeks twice on the left once on the right "Now go and dress up so i can take you to school" he kisses my nose and runs to his room to dress up.

I get out of bed and wince at the soreness but as usual there are no wounds left they're all on the inside. I go to the bathroom to wash my face not even bothering to look in the mirror, there's nothing new to see I still have the same face maybe the only difference today would be an addition to the whole shop of bags I have under my eyes. After brushing my teeth I go back to my room and change my pyjama shorts to sweatpants and keep the t-shirt I slept in on throw my hair in a ponytail and wear my adidas sliders not at all bothered about my appearance.

I tiredly make my way to the living room of our small 2 bedroom flat and drop onto our battered couch, letting my head drop back and closing my eyes and regulating my breathing something akin to peace blanketed me... Well until Al thought that would be the perfect time to jump on me and make his presence known, a sense of De ja vu hits me.

"I'm ready for school now" he said with joy in his voice his eyes filled with a brightness that was foreign to me

"Have you had your cereal?" I ask

"Yuuup, can we go now Ms Davies said were using the playdough today" he says his body constantly bouncing from excitement.

A small smile makes an appearance on my face at his antics and a full blown one when i see his spiderman t-shirt "Well then mini spidey lets go to school"

Alor jumps up and takes my hand dragging us outside nearly making me forget to lock the door behind us, his laughter filling the air.

A/N: Sooooo what did you guys think about my first ever chapter I know its short as hell but seeing as this is my first ever time writing a book I'm still getting a hang of it,however (i really love that word) my next chapter will be way longer I prooooomise so leave some feedback for me in the comments.

See you later Earthlings *disappears from view*