Jaded

Chapter 7

Chapter 7.

"Are you sure you should be out ?"

"Ya , just the aftermath of little sleep and the high of caffeine "

Laila and I are outside, in her backyard . She looked high and sick , but she wouldn't go to bed .

"Don't you got any friends huh Andrew ?"

"Well damn, yes I do. Do you got any , other than me?" I smiled and winked at her .... Did I wink at her ?

"Duh. You don't go out much "

"True that. Between you and me , society doesn't like me"

"Of course , I don't like society."

she smiles up to me and makes eye contact . Lighting up a cigarette. I notice finally today , in the this dim afternoon light . Her eyes are the color of honey . Her lips are not too full, they're not thin . They're perfectly shaped , her lilac lipstick makes them stand out .

"Do you always wear the same shade of lipstick ?"

"Huh? Almost no one notices , no. Sometimes it's more pink. Sometimes it's more purplely , if that makes sense , hey, I made a new word! "

she laughs and I smile like a dumbass. Her waves curled at the very tips , her hair is a light brown . She's wearing a long skirt , sheer from her knees down.

A plain white tee

A floral headband

A cigarette between her lips .

She's playing something that sounds like Coldplay . She leans in my shoulder , offering me a cigarette .

"Are you into them? "

She whispers , waving her iPod.

"Yes"

"Mm ok ."

She smiles a little and looks down at her bracelets . All different colors, all different sizes .

"I was lost , I was lost, crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed, I was lost oh yea..."

She sings along , her smile fades.

"I use to listen to this a lot back in high school . We moved so much with my family . Once I started adapting , we would move again. It doesn't even fit right with me, but the lyrics always seemed right."

Her expression is well , lonely.

" I started photography when I was a sophomore . I realized because I moved so much , I always had new views , now I'm stuck with nature pictures , country , farms , cities . I tried to see the positive side of the situations."

I reach for her hand . She smiles .

"Friends where a problem. We didn't really settle any where for a long time until my senior year. Because my grandmother came in the situation , said I deserved to have one year of 'normality ' attend to clubs , maybe do a sport . Go to prom . Little shit like that . Of course , none of it bothered me much . Except ... Prom ."

"Huh, prom? Why?"

She looks up to me , her eyes widened a little . Her cheeks going red .

" I was awkward Andrew , well to be honest I still are . I didn't go to prom with any guy . My Friend Annie took pity on me and we went together , we hanged together , stood by the corner and laughed at girls so wore the 5 inch heels and all they did was complain . It was nice , but I didn't really get the high school sweetheart thing . I haven't been in a relationship since my junior year ."

Oh

"That's a shocker ."

"Are you being sarcastic ?"

"No ! No, just, honest."

I pray. don't make a fool out yourself Andrew.

"How is it a shocker though ?"

"Well your not ugly "

"But I'm not pretty"

"Sure lets go wit... Wait no , I mean you're pretty but a little more."

I look at her , she's giggling .

"Something funny Laila ?"

"You, are you always so weird ?" I want to answer , but I hear thunder .

"The hell?" It rains . Laila and I get up so fast, I just feel the rain pouring down so fast, so hard . I slip or she does first , our bodies hit and then we're on the floor . Soaking wet and I'm on top of her .

"Go on a diet dude."

"Sorry sorry" I help her up , and she sticks her tongue at me . She walks to her kitchen door , she signs me to go inside . Her white tee is sticking to her small figure . Her skirt dripping water and she's putting her hair in some weird bun.

Her eyes shine even more in the kitchen light .

More lighting , more thunder . We make eye contact . She smiles at me .

"Want some ..."

The lights go off .

"Andrew ?"

"Still infront of you."

She reaches for me , small fingers finding my arms .

Closer

Fingers entwined

"Your hands are warm Andrew"

She whispers softly

My hand finds its way up to her cheek. She's cold .

I didn't realize how tall I am next to her .

I back her up to the wall .

My heart is beating fast , so fast .

My lips find her forehead , her fingers lacing behind my neck .

My lips are on her nose.

My lips find hers,

slightly parted ,

warm, soft

I don't want to lose control .

"Kiss me again Andrew"

Tabbaco and candy flavored kisses.

My hands in her waist .

I feel her smile against my lips, I kiss her a bit harder .

I almost forgot to breathe .