I Hate You (Book1)

•I HATE YOU 15•

Don't kill me. 😪
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I felt someone tapping my shoulder and I opened my eyes to see Natrisha. "Bey woke up and she is asking for you," she said.

"Oh thanks," I said standing up. She nodded and I walked, well, limped into the room.

Mr. Knowles nodded at me and left the room leaving Bey and I to ourselves.

I looked at her and slowly walked over to her. She was sitting up and smiled when she saw me. "Shawn," she smiled.

"Bey," I stretched out my arms and hugged her gently. "How are you feeling?"

"Ok, considering I almost died," she chuckled. "What about you? They shot you too," she asked.

"They stitched up my leg since it was only a graze. Tho I have to keep this sling for my shoulder for three weeks," I said.

She nodded in understanding. "Did he die?" She asked me quietly.

"Yes, the police aren't pressing any charges against us since it was self defense," I said and she nodded.

"That's good. I just have to be here two more weeks and then I'll be back to normal I think I'll need a sling for a week tho," she said.

"We are free Bey," I said after some silence..

"We are. Thanks for being here," she said smiling lightly.

"No. Thank you. You were the one who helped me through all of this. But um.. Do you remember me saying anything?" I asked her.

"About what?"

"About um.. Something when you were stabilized," I couldn't bring myself to say it.

"No. I don't really remember anything after being shot," she said after being quiet for a bit.

"Oh. Ok," I didn't know what to say.

"Why what did you say?"

I took a deep breath and opened my mouth, "I told you I-" I got cut off by Kelly running in the room.

"Bey! You're ok!" She said rushing to her side and hugging her.

"Yeah I am," Bey chuckled before turning back to me. I was about to leave the room but she stopped me. "Wait, Shawn. What were you saying?"

"Um.. It's not important. I'll just tell you later," I said.

A day turned into two.

Then into three.

That turned into four.

Slowly it turned into a week.

After that it became three weeks and Beyoncé was officially out of the hospital and back into school. I still had yet to tell her how I felt.

I had visited every single day at the hospital yet every time I tried to tell her we would be interrupted, or I would chicken out.

"Thanks for driving me, Shawn," Bey smiled.

"You're welcome.." I said getting out and helping her out too. I took her backpack since she had a week left to wear the sling.

As soon as we entered the building we were ambushed by questions, welcome back signs, flowers, and chocolates.

"Come on Shawn, we have Math," she said as I caught up with her.

I held the door open for her and sat down next to her. "Mr. Carter, Ms. Knowles, we are glad to have you back," Mr. Lavdule.

( me_against_world yup, inspired by Lavadoodles 😂😭)

"It's good to be back," Beyoncé smiled.

"Ok, now let's work. Being hurt isn't an excuse to fail or not work hard," he said not even giving us a chance to talk.

The first three periods were hell.

We had math. Then social studies and finally literature where Bey and I finished the project.

Yes. You heard it.

We finished.

Bey and I sat our stuff down at a table. Kelly came and sat with us. "I'll go get the food what y'all want?"

"Um.. I want a sandwich and some Pringles," Kelly said.

"I think I'll have the same," Bey said and I nodded walking towards the cafeteria food line.

Beyoncé's P.O.V:

"What?" I asked Kelly who had been staring at me.

"There's something you're hiding from him," she said bluntly.

"How do you know?!"

"I can see it all over your face. I'm surprised he doesn't," she said shrugging.

"I just don't know what to do," I sighed.

"What are you not telling him?" She asked.

"He told me something when I was unconscious and he asked me if I remembered it and I did but I lied and said I didn't," I said biting my lip.

"Girl what the hell? What did he say?"

"He told me he loved me," I said sighing.

"You are so stupid! Why would you lie!? Bitch I know you love him!"

"I do but I think it just slipped out of him," I explained.

"What you mean?" She asked confused.

"If he loves me as he said he did then why wouldn't he tried to say it again? Why wouldn't he try harder to let me know?" I questioned.

"Because he already poured his heart out to a half dead you! He is probably scared to say it again or get rejected," she said.

"But I already told him I would always be there for him no matter what. Why would he think that I'll reject him?"

"Because you used to hate each other he is probably scared that you still hate him. Plus you are kinda breaking the promise you guys made by lying to him now," she said.

"Ugh! You're right! But what if we don't work out? What if he cheats? What if he treats me like one of those skanks he used to date?" I am literally questioning everything.

"He went through this whole Wayne thing with you and he didn't sleep with anyone the two times y'all did. He treats you like a queen even though you say you hate him when you really don't. Let's not forget he has basically been your butler since you came out of the hospital," she said looking at me.

"You're right, Kellz. I should probably tell him I heard him tell me he loves me. At the end of the day I love him too," Kelly looked at me like she had seen a ghost.

I turned around and saw Shawn holding our trays. "You what?"

"Shawn I-"

"Save it, you already did too much, Bey," he said before grabbing his bag and leaving the cafeteria angrily.