I Hate You (Book1)

•I HATE YOU 16•

I left my bag and ran after Jay. I didn't care about the pain pulling at my chest and my shoulder, I just wanted to see him.

I saw him getting in his car so I opened the passenger seat and got in. "Get out," he said not even looking at me.

"Look Shawn I know I'm-" I know he did not just cut me off.

"Get out. I don't wanna hear it," he said. "You promised me I could trust you. I told you everything! I hadn't told anyone else many things I told you. How you repay me? You lie," he said. 

"No! You will listen and listen well," I said seriously.

He looked at me and waited for me to speak. "I lied to keep you from breaking my heart," I started. "Are you really that stupid to think I don't love you? Dude you made me fall since you came into my room in the middle of the night," I said and a tear fell down my face.

"Do you know how many damn times you said I was 'your girl' and the only thing I wanted was to make it true?!" I asked him.

He stayed quiet. "How many fucking times I was scared about you making it alive the next day!? So yes, Shawn, I fucking hate you," I said as another tear fell.

"I fucking hate you for making me fall in love. I hate you for making me have feelings. I get it! Feelings fade, and people change but all I wanted was to stay the same," I said.

"What you mean?"

"I mean I was a rich girl who thought she was perfect than everyone else. Now I am a rich girl that fell in love with an ex-drug dealer and doesn't know what to do about it," I sighed.

"I don't know what to do either," he whispered.

I looked at him and we both had a few tears. "Is falling in love supposed to be this complicated?"

"I don't know, Bey," he said shaking his head, "I don't know. I finally found something I can't study for, but I can totally fail," he chuckled.

We both say in silence for a few minutes before I looked up at him. "Can we make a deal?"

"Um.. Sure," he said nodding.

"Let's give each other some time to think.. And then we can talk about how we feel tomorrow," I said after some silence.

"I agree, finally giraffe, we have something we agree in," he laughed.

"Shut up, camel," I laughed getting out of his car.

"Where you going?" He asked me.

"I'm going to get my bag then you are driving me home," I smirked.

He nodded and turned on the radio. I rushed back to the cafeteria ignoring the stares I received. I ran inside and grabbed my bag.

"Where you going?" Kelly asked confused.

"I'm going home. I need the day off," I said.

"Bitch, I didn't mean that.. I don't car just make sure you get your man," she laughed.

"I'll try," I laughed leaving the cafeteria.

I got in Shawn's car and he drove off. "Thanks Shawn," I said when he pulled over in my house.

"You welcome, B. See you tomorrow," he said as I got out.