Hey! If you got this far, yay! But I honestly hope you know that I made this for you. I myself have had dark times in my life. I needed someone to see past my fake smiles. I needed someone to know what I was going through and help me out. Instead, because of my stubbornness, they hurt me more. I began to use smiles that could never quite reach my eyes. I began to think darker thoughts about how I was worthless, ugly, pathetic, and rude. I grew closer to the color black and embraced it, thinking that just as black was the absence of color, my soul was absent of good. My moods became worse, happiness never truly lasting, if there at all. My anger became worse, it's effect and hold on me getting stronger. But I have perfected the fake smiles and false happiness so I was fooling everyone. I even fooled myself into thinking that I was okay. But I wasn't. I began looking down at myself, wondering why I wasn't enough to myself or anyone else. It almost drove me to the point were I wanted to... Just end it. Not end being on this earth, but end living. My soul was hollow, and I filled the gaps with anger and sadness. I don't think it was depression but it was pretty close. And it sucked, because no one knew. No one could see past my facade. No one could help me out. And I was too stubborn to ask for help. I almost tried self harm and I almost blew up. But every night I cried to the one thing that was there for me, my pillow. It was constantly stained with the tears I had shed from days of torture.
What I'm saying is that I don't want you to get that far down into the rabbit hole. If you need anything, ask me. I can't loan money to you ( I'm broke enough already), and I can't go and talk to you face to face. But you can PM me. Just treat me like a diary or something. Or better yet, treat me like a friend. I want to help you out of the darkness. I want to be the sun that puts it behind you. The beacon of light that keeps you going.
Trust me when I say that it gets better. I hate to be cliche, but it will. You have to have to strength to push foreword. You have to be determined to reach that point. Let me tell you the truth though: it will be hard. I had to do it alone which was painful. Look on the funny side of things. Laugh. Love yourself. Know that you are beautiful no matter what anyone says. Know that you are amazing and funny and kind and smart and young and strong and determined and wonderful. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Punch them in the face if they try. Because they have no right to bring you down. No right to do that and act like they are kings (or queens) while you are nothing. Because you are something special. Like a flower, in full bloom. A little earlier or later than all the others but more beautiful in comparison.
This book is for you. This book is for the people that know. The people that wake up every morning and wished they didn't. The people that fell down the rabbit hole and can't find a way back up. The people that have tear stained pillows in the morning. The people that wear fake smiles. The people that are stubborn, too stubborn to ask for help. The helpless. The people that embrace the darkness. This is for you. I share this with you because I know the feeling. I know it all too well...
The sun will come up tomorrow... I promise.
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Life Changing Quotes for Tough Times
RandomThese quotes helped me through difficult times in my life. Some of them are home made and others are borrowed. But by posting this, I hope to help you. I'm not asking for votes or comments unless it really moves you, but what I'm really asking is to...
