The Matrimony 3 (Completed)

Chapter 26-The Truth

After Almost Relapsing I Took A Look In The Mirror And I Did Not Like What I Was Seeing

This Love This Marriage Almost Drove Me Back Down That Path Of Destruction

I Was Losing My Sanity And Mostly Importantly My Head

I Hated That My Marriage Was Potentially Failing And I Just Couldn't Take It

I Missed Him But I Still Needed To Be Away From Him So When He Brought The Children Back He Asked To Speak To Me So I Invited Him While The Nanny Took My Children Upstairs

We Were Standing Face To Face When August Said "I Miss You...I Wanna Work This Out"

"I Want The Same But I Think Its Best We Just Separate For A Moment Untill We Can Get This Straightened Out"I Said

"Its Not That Hard Aziah Make Up Ya Mind Do You Love Me"He Asked

"I Love You But I Don't Think Im In Love With You Anymore"I Said

"Than Just Fall Back In Love With Me"He Said Like Its Easy

"Why Because You Want Me ! God You Are So Controlling You Even Try To Control The Way That I Love You"I Said Shaking My Head In Disappointed

"Im Not Tryna To Be Controling But Its Been Two Weeks How Long We Gon Be Apart"He Asked

"Until I Decide What I Wanna Do"I Said

"Either You Want To Be Married Or You Don't"He Said

"After All This Shit You Putting Me Through You Lucky I Haven't Divorce Your Ass By Now! You Got Me Crying Every Second,Im Stressed My Hair Is Shedding All Because Of You"I Said As I Pushed Him Back

Than I Looked At Him And Said "The Other Day I Locked Myself In My Bedroom With A Half Bag Coke I Was Hurting So Bad Because Of You I Almost Relapse Thanks To You...So Don't You Come In Here Demanding For Answer When You Got Me Goin Through It!"

"I Fucked Up I Can Admit That You Think I Didn't Mean To Hurt You On Purpose"He Said

"Well You Do Everytime I Feel Like I Everytime I Think I Can Trust You You Ended Up Breakin My Heart"I Said

"Aziah Im Sorry..Look Baby Don't Give Up On Us Not Yet"He Said To Me

"I Need More Time"I Said

"Im Not Waiting Forever Make Choice And Make It Quick"He Said

A Part Of Me Was Wanting To Stay And Make This Work With August Another Part Of Me Wanted To Hate August And Move On

This Decision Was So Hard For Me I Really Didn't Want To Stay Anymore

In My Heart It Was Over I Just Keep Denying It I Didn't Wanna Believe That Me And August Was Done

I Deserve Better I Deserve Someone Who Loves Me Just As Much As I Love Them I Deserve A Husband Who Can Stay Faithful I Deserve Someone Who Respects My Heart

I Went Days Just Thinkin About Me And August I Couldn't Eat,I Could Sleep,I Couldn't Smile Nor Could Accept The Truth

Truth Was August Had Hurt Me For The Last Time Truth Is I Can Longer Trust Him Anymore There Was No Point In Staying With Him

I Was Fed Up And Had Enough August Had Me Feel The Worst For The Last Time

All The Hoes,Groupies,Bitches He Was With Why Isn't Im Enough To Truly Satisfy Him

I Was Asking Myself That Like Its Something Wrong With Me But Its Nothing Wrong With Me Its Something Deeply Wrong With Him

Im Just Feeling Worthless Because He Forced Me To Feel This Way With The Lying,The Cheating,And The Betrayal