The Only Exception

The First Time

Half an hour. Half an hour until Jesse would pick me up. I did my makeup nicely, I even went on YouTube to watch tutorials. Dad obviously doesn't know how to use makeup so I'm all on my own when it comes to looking nice. I straightened my long blonde hair. I wore my tan strappy heels with high waisted light blue jeans and a baggy white crop top. I didn't want to look too dressy but I didn't want to look like I wasn't trying. And obviously I wore matching bra and underwear. I felt good, but nervous. Really, really, really nervous. I knew what was happening tonight. I planned it for god's sake. Why did I do that? I always imagined my first time being spontaneous, romantic and in the moment. But now that I know it's coming makes it a whole lot more scary. Plus, I know Jesse's done it before. At least I know he'll know what he's doing but I'm freaking out, what if he judges me or thinks I'm worse than his other partners. Well if I'm this scared it's not gonna be good for either of us. I looked at the clock, 6:58pm.
I'm here -J
I run over to my curtains and open them and I see him in his car. He's two minutes early. I could all of a sudden feel my heart beating and my stomach dropping and my breath shortening. I closed my eyes and breathed slowly.
"Ok I'm going now dad."
"Sweet." I told him I was going ten pin bowling with Jesse and Caroline then I'd be staying at Caroline's.

I got in Jesse's car. He looked so good. His blonde hair was perfectly messy, his eyes were just the most amazing shade of blue. He was wearing a black long sleeve shirt that fit his muscular physique incredibly and jeans. He always looked so damn good.

"You look fantastic babe." I looked at him shyly. I tucked some hair behind my ear. He started the car and told me the plan for the night. "So my parents are for the night, not like they mind you staying over but you know, we won't have to keep the noise down." I laughed. "Umm that came out wrong."
"Don't worry, I know what you mean." I said. He smiled at me then carried on.
"So yea I thought we could watch a movie or two and just chill, until, ya know."
"Sounds good." I looked over at him. He didn't sound nervous or worried, but it was awkward talking about it. Him being so calm surprisingly made me less calm. He had nothing to worry about, he knows what he's doing. I rested my elbow on the door and my head in my hand. I think Jesse may have noticed my nervousness. He put his hand on my thigh and rubbed his thumb on my leg.
"I'm really happy about tonight Brittany." He said kindly.
"Me too."

We finally arrived at his house. It was pretty nice, his dad's a lawyer so they're pretty well off. I did notice he never really understood my living situation. His parents are still together, he has a successful older brother, he has gotten everything he's ever wanted. The only reason he got a job was because he was bored. His words, not mine. He was holding my hand and he lead me to the couch. We decided to watch Romeo and Juliet first, the one with Leonardo DiCaprio. About an hour through I took my shoes off. The movie ended, I didn't look at Jesse. There was definitely tension in the air. He paused the movie during the credits. I could hear the radio from the kitchen, "Say it" by flume and Tove Lo. I could feel my heart again, I could feel my stomach dropping again.
"Do you wanna watch another movie?" He asked casually.

I didn't answer instead I just grabbed his face and kissed him. He kissed me back, I could feel him smiling.
"I think this is better than a movie." He said, I slightly laughed and pulled him onto me. He was on top of me on the couch. He slid his hand up my shirt. I tugged on his shirt, he sat up and took his shirt off with ease revealing his extremely tone body. He then assisted me in the removal of my shirt, he threw it across the room. He then began kissing my neck and he left traces of kisses down my collar bone to my chest, he stopped when he reached the brim of my jeans. I looked down at him in confusion, I did not want him to stop. It felt really good. He just smiled at me. He began kissing my neck again, I put my hand on the back of his head. I could feel his hands on the button of my jeans, I heard a zipper and I knew that was my queue to get rid of my pants. Once they were gone he began kissing my hip bones, I pulled him towards me and we began kissing and I was unbuttoning his pants. Soon we were both in our underwear. He pulled me onto him so now I was sitting on his lap, my legs around him like a koala. He had his hands on my waist as we were kissing. He began to unclip my bra. I helped him out there and took it off. He then put himself back on top of me. He hooked his finger in my underwear. That was when it hit me, this is real. Jesse and I had done stuff before but I'm about to give my virginity to him. I thought I would have a bigger inner battle about this but I feel ready, I know Jesse loves me.

...

I woke up in Jesse's arms, I looked at him and he was still asleep. Perfect. I got up and put on one of his shirts and my underwear. I went to the bathroom to freshen up, adjust anything that looked, out of order. Last night was great, it wasn't as great as some people make it out to be i.e. Caroline. I think the best part of it all was the build up to the actual action. I went back into his room, he was in bed. He was awake now.

"Morning." He said in his sexy morning voice.
"Good morning." I said climbing on him, kissing him.
"Round two aye?" He said laughing.
"Hahaha I don't think so big boy." I say patting his chest. I got out of the bed.
"What do you wanna do today?" He asked.
"I have an essay due for English tomorrow so I gotta do that."
"Noo, let's do something fun. Make the most of the weekend." He said groaning.
"You're such a bad influence on me." I say jokingly.
"I know." He said pulling me to him, then he gets on top of me and kisses me while holding my wrists above my head.
"By the way, this shirt looks good on you."
"Why thank you." I say laughing because of the pressure on my stomach with him on me.
"But it'd look better off." He said smirking.
"Get off me ya big lug." I say getting out from under him. I stood on his balcony and he came out after me. He hugged me from behind.
"Last night was fun." He whispered in my ear.
"Yea, it was." I say looking up at him and giving him a kiss.