Shyless Pain

What you know is all just a......

(Long chapter XD)

Shy woke up in the sound of static in her left ear it annoyed her but she didn't care, she stood up and went to the bath room when she looked in the mirror she saw her eyes, the pupils blood red she kinda liked it that way but the thing that shocked her was that she didn't have the black "blood" on her body or clothes anymore she was confused but she didn't care..at least she was clean now..right? but she was curious to say the least. after look in the mirror for a minute and thinking what just happened last night she decided that she still had to take a bath to freshen her self up. She took her time just thinking and humming the melody that Roger hummed to her last night she thought the melody was familiar not because of Roger it's like she've heard it somewhere before... When she was little? ,thinking to much made her feel anxious and made her dizzy. After her bath she made her way to her closet and picked a gray hoodie that was to big for her..it was her brothers...the hoodie smelled like her brothers cologne..it smelled like blue berry..her brother loved blue berry, every time they went to a mall or even eat outside Blaze would always buy blue berry short cake and Shy would always buy the strawberry short cake...all the memories of her brother flow by her and all the happy ones with her father as well..she felt sad..for her brother..for her father..for her self...and her mother....Shy cried silently in her room griping tight on her brothers hoodie..thinking to herself that she shouldn't have come to the party, that it was all her fault.. If she didn't came Blaze would never follow...she wished that all of it was just a dream that all of it never happened...but looking at the time..looking at the date..she knew that it already happened and there was no going back to that time she lost her only brother...there would never be a chance to bring him back...she knew that so well..but inside her...just a small part of her..she wished she didn't know nor believe that it was true.

Shy stopped crying when she heard Roger calling her name she wiped her tries away with the sleeve of her hoodie she looked in the mirror hoping that she didn't look like she was crying..she was glad she didn't looked like she was.

Shy walked down the stairs clumsily her mind was spinning and her body hurts..she thought Roger saw that she was having a hard time because he quickly helped her by holding her left arm and guiding her down the stairs. Shy wanted to say thank you but no voice came out it hurts when she tried to talk..I guess that's what you get from shouting to much...

"Hey Shy, you doing alright?" Roger asked her while he was cooking at the kitchen. Rogers cooking skills was very good and she sometimes wish she could be as good as him..

Roger looked at her with his smile but his eyes hold sadness. Shy just smiled hiding what she really fells and just nods slowly letting him know she was alright, Roger took it.

She walked to the couch and suddenly remembered the time where she and her brother used to watch tv and play games or even annoy each other because they had nothing better to do with their lives..she smiled..just a little...

She sat down and watched tv..she felt hot tiers slide down her cheeks, she didn't even noticed it, Roger came out the kitchen door and saw Shy covering her face with a pillow "Shy..?" Roger asked "are you, ok?" She nodded "are you saying the truth?" She nod "Shy." The way Roger said it it sounded like a command...but still worried. Shy didn't know what to do and just sit there listening to the sound of the tv..she waited and waited for him to say something but the only thing she heard was foot steps going near her, Shy thought that he'll snatch the pillow from her that's why she grip it tight..but for her surprise he just patted her in the head and walked to the kitchen then turned off the stove and walked to the door. Shy looked up and saw Roger walking to the door and closing it behind him slowly, she was alone now..again. Shy just stared at the tv, she was listening.....not watching, everything was a blur to her.

~~~minutes past~~~

Roger came back carrying a plastic bag he smiled widely, She was confused..Roger came up to her and said to her that if she smiled he'll show her what he brought for her..This made Shy curious. She followed Roger to the kitchen and saw him put the plastic bag inside the fridge and close it...Roger walked away and continued his cooking, Shy went up to the fridge and opened it but Roger stopped her "Shy no looking inside its top secret" she stopped and looked at Roger and made a "seriously" face. Roger came close to her and patted her head "haha yes seriously" Roger laughed and looked at the time when he did his smile dropped into a frown, this made Shy wondered what's wrong..she wanted to ask but her voice was not coming out..

"Shy can you please prepare the table...your mom is coming home and-" he stopped looking at the knifes for a second then looked back at her "..after we eat together...with your mom...go to your room and lock your door..can you do that for me, love?" Roger asked with a sad smile...Shy couldn't speak so she used sign language to asked 'why' she was glad she came with Liam and His mom to a party where kids who can't speak learn to do sigh languages she doesn't know if Roger could understand but she tried. Roger looked at her confused at first but then looked surprise "wow you can do sign languages that's awesome" Roger didn't answer her question so she tried again..Roger looked at her hands he stayed quiet for a while "come on then let's make the table" Roger turned around, Shy tried to make a sound but it hurt her throat Roger stopped cause he felt her pain.." because..." Roger stopped "tonight...a sheep might get eaten alive " Roger looked at her and smiled Shy was surprise.

Roger told shy to set down for now and that he'll be the one who will set up the table for now..but Shy didn't agreed, so Roger told her to just watch..She nodded. Roger set up the table putting only 3 plates on the table Shy looked at him blankly Roger also looked at her but smiled sadly...then continued what he was doing. After Roger set up the table, Roger told Shy to sit down and that they'll have to wait for her mom to come home..Shy nodded and followed what he said.

It was quiet at for a minute but Roger broke the silence

"Shy.." He said

Shy looked at him

"Do you have a friend that's close here?"

She nodded, Shy thought of hoodie and Liam, She asked using sign language..Roger just looked down, he tried to look at her and opened his mouth but quickly shut it...

"Tonight..please.." He said softly

Shy looked at him confused, Roger looked straight into her eyes, Shy noticed his hands shaking and he was sweating he tried to keep himself clam, trying to hold on to what he have--like he was scared that something bad might happened if he continued-like if he continued..he'll break something

"Shy... Tonight...please-"

The door ring

"Hide"