Not Another Cheesy Romance Novel

November 2, 2015 (Isaiah)

When I woke up and Cas wasn't wrapped around me in some way or another, it hurt. I was growing to have feelings for her. I knew she had feelings for me. I longed to have her in my arms again, but it wouldn't happen, she wasn't coming back. "She isn't coming back" I said to myself. It hurt that I let those words burn in my throat and then slip through my lips, and off my tongue. It was currently 6:01 AM, it felt too early to be up, but too late to go back to bed. So I got up, showered, threw on some clothes, and went down to the lobby to get breakfast. I got as little as I could, I wasn't very hungry. I still grabbed the milk, orange juice, and cereal as I would have any other day. I went back to the room, put them in the mini fridge and plopped down on the bed. It made a groan as I landed on it. I didn't need to work any hours today, unless I wanted to get extra pay, I did, but I didn't want to work today, so I was going to make due with what I could.

The room felt so empty, lonely, quiet without Cas' loud and explosively energetic personality bubbling around the room. I let a few tears slip out of my eyes before I let out a moan, and started sobbing. I screwed up again, I let another beautiful, amazing, smart, woman walk out of my life because I'm too stupid to get them to stay. I screwed up everything. Thats why Jaime left, thats why Cas left. I feel so empty in this room all alone.

Around 12:30 Pm, I started to get a migraine. I searched and searched and searched for something to take, whether it be aspirin, Excedrin , Tylenol, something. I couldn't find anything. I grabbed a few bucks and headed out to the car. "I don't have a god damn car!!" I yelled, extremely pissed.  It felt like a billion degrees out, and I had to walk to the store to get something to take for my splitting headache, that resembled a drill going through my head repeatedly.

I walked down to the lobby, and asked the clerk, if I could borrow her keys to go to the corner store, or if she could give me a ride to get some pain medicine. She immediately pointed to the gift shop in the corner of the store that I had not noticed until now. It had candy, drinks, nick nacks, tampons, toilet paper, pregnancy tests, medicine galore, ice cream, loads of other crap. "How did I never know about this?" I asked myself. I walked in, grabbed a bottle of Excedrin, gave the kind looking lady at the cash register a $5 bill, she returned 45 cents to me, and said "Have a nice day!" I said the same to her, and we smiled at each other as I walked back up to my room.

Once I got inside my room, I downed the medication with a gulp, and laid on the bed, longing for Cas' sweet, plump arms to be wrapped around my body. I was becoming infatuated with this soft, kind woman, who had left without a trace. I missed her presence, I felt like a lost puppy without her being her with me. She got on my nerves, in an adorable girlfriend kind of way, and I loved it. I loved her. "I love her" I said to myself aloud. A single tear fell down my face, and I sat up in one quick motion. I called Jaime.

"Hi, is this Jaime?" I asked.
"Speaking, whos this?" She replied with a sweet, soft voice that made me feel at home, even though I longed to hear the voice of another person.
"Its Isaiah, can we talk" I said, I know I sounded a little down, but this sounded flat out desperate, without meaning to.
She groaned "What ? Your whore little girlfriend left you because you're such a prick to everyone?! So now you're crawling back! HAHA! Pathetic, thats what you are!" She said. I tried to play it off like that didn't hurt me, she knew I was weak, and she always did everything so could to put me down.
"Never f.ucking mind!" I yelled, and hung up her, she was such a bitch to me all the time, I was so tired of it. I laid back down on the bed, still longing for the sweet girls arms around me, and fell asleep.