he stayed for awhile after that left.
after he left I was thinking about it & how I would never want that feeling to go away.
we talked on the phone all night every night for hours about us & how we make eachother feel there was know doubt in my mind he didn't feel the same way I did & I was in love more then I have ever been I gave him every last bit of my heart I gave him everything I had .
*3weeks after I lost it *
me; (phone ringing ) hey bae
Lloyd; hey love
me; what's up
Lloyd; chillin
me; oh okay
Lloyd; (laughs) what are u doing today?
Me; I don't know yet. I really want you to come over tho !!
Lloyd; I'm out here
Me; come over now! I said wit excitement
Lloyd; I'm boutta play basketball.. but I'll hit u up after
me; ight
Lloyd; Iove you India!
me; I love you more!
Lloyd; never!
I laughed & hung up then I called my best friend amber.
Amber; BOOP
Me; Hey babyy
Amber; what's up
Me; in my room layn down on the phone with the best beautifulest person in thee world
Amber; aweee
*we both laughed *
me; but wyd
Amber; tryna figure out why my bestfriend has no time for me any more! she said in her serious voice
Me; I'm sorry ammie bammie.... I think I'm in love
Amber; Omg!, I knew it
she didn't sound excited tho.
Me; (laughed) Yeah , idont know how but he got me.
Amber; Did you have Sex?!
Me; uhhh...
Amber; (laughs) your not a virgin anymore! awwe
Me; yupp & I feel amazing
Amber; how many times?
Me; once...
Amber; that's even cuter!
Me; yeah, he might be coming over later.
Amber ; don't do anything I wouldn't do, I gotta go baby I'll talk to you later.
Me ;OK Ammie bammie , I love you
Amber; I love you more. she said softly
*we hung up *
(thoughts) Amber is beautiful I'm not going to hold you , I'm totally attracted to her..I really love her she's my bestfriend I just wonder why she acts weird when I talk about my relationships . :/
(text messages)
Lloyd; you tryna chill still?
Me; Sure
Lloyd; Meet Me At Evergreen
Me; Lol ok
it was freezing outside that night so I bundled up I can't remember what I was exactly wearing but I know i had on my Nike air sweatshirt & my black uggs.
it was only my second time sneaking out the house so I was scared I grabbed my bag and tip toed down the stairs when I got to the back door I slowly opened it, there was no way for the door to not make noise so I just hurried up & got it over with. I made sure I had my key & I quickly closed the door shut then started to make my way to evergreen
it was a rush I never disobey my parents ,it felt kinda good but I knew it was wrong.
*Evergreen park *
as soon as I seen him I felt warm inside & a big smile appeared on my face .
Lloyd; (smiled grabbed my waist & kissed my neck slowly )
me; mm (put my arms on his shoulders )
we sat on the swings talking for a while then went at the top of the playground were there was a big space.
he pulled me towards him...
