Everything looks so unreal, I blame myself for not being there for you.
I miss you all the time. Every time I needed you, you were there for me. As time passed I always thought we had a conection.
You left without saying a word, without saying goodbye...
I never got to say I love you as much as I wanted to but I do. There is no pain that can be compared to your death, there is nothing that can repair the suffering that you've left behind, there is nothing that can fill this empty place in my heart you left, it will be something I'll have to deal with all my life, for those who stay behind, all that is left is sorrow and sadness.
Time won't change a thing, it will only make me habituated of not having you by my side.
I'm sorry if I didn't value you enough, if I received more than I gave, if I failed you, if I threw away the time we had together because of stupid motives, if I ever made you cry, if I wasn't there when you needed me, if I didn't do the right choices, if I didn't have the right answers, I'm so sorry.
I'll never forget how you helped me, when you made me smile when all I wanted was to cry, when you opened up my eyes, for all the warnings, all the happiness we shared, all our moments, for everything, I'll be forever gratefull.
For all these years, thank you.
Sister I love you, I'll never forget you, I promise you that.
