To Be With You (Dally Winston love story)

chapter five

I feel so stupid. How could I let myself fall for him. I should have known he didn’t really care. Dallas Winston doesn’t care about anyone. He was just playing me. The kiss it probably meant nothing to him. But it meant everything to me. How perfect it felt, how amazing his lips felt on mine. I just wish he would feel the same.

Dally’s POV  

I never meant for any of that to happen. But I just couldn’t stop myself. I know I like Christy now. I’m sure of it. All I think about is her. I shouldn’t have just left her that night. I should’ve stayed. I should have told her how I felt. No. I can’t let myself think this. I can’t let myself fall in love with her.

I was deciding on if I should go see her. Not to tell her anything just see her. Be with her. If she would still even want to be near me. I kissed her and then I just walked out like it didn’t mean anything. And I’m not for sure exactly what it meant to her or if she really didn’t give a damn either way. All I know is that it meant everything to me. That one kiss and I just can’t get her off my mind.

Normal POV

When I walked in the in the Curtis house I saw Ponyboy sitting at the kitchen table and he was pretty beat up. “What happened Pony?” I asked taking a seat beside him. “Socs” he answered, sounding like he had been crying. “Are you okay?” “Yeah I’m fine, really don’t worry about it.” I just let it go. I knew Ponyboy didn’t want to talk about it. You could tell by the way he acted. So I didn’t push any farther. Then Dally walked in. I figured he’d be here at some point. He always comes here. But as soon as I saw him I felt tears welling up in my eyes, but quickly blinked them away. I just sat there pretending like I didn’t even see him. But of course he couldn’t just let it go. Pretend nothing happen. “Hey Christy I think we need to talk. Alone.” He said pointing to the door. “fine.” That was all I said. I didn’t really want to talk to him. But I knew I would eventually have to. So the quicker the better I guess. I didn’t know what I should say or how I should say it. I mean do I come right out and tell him how I feel? I didn’t have to worry about it because he said something first. “Listen I shouldn’t have left you like that. But I also shouldn’t have kissed you either. I… I was just… I don’t really know what to say. I don’t want to hurt you. But it was a mistake. I was just leading you on. So can we just pretend like it never happened? Cause it really meant nothing.” It felt like I couldn’t breathe. Like my world was being torn apart. I don’t know why I let him get to me like this. “Yeah. Sure. Whatever. It meant nothing to me too.” I said trying to sound like I didn’t care. But I had already ruined that when I felt a warm tear running down my cheek. I didn’t want him to see the effect he had on me so I left. He said something but I didn’t hear what it was. It really didn’t matter to me anymore. If he didn’t care, then neither would I.

Dally’s POV

I never meant to hurt her. What I said, it was killing me inside. The only part that was true if what I said was that it was a mistake. If I had never kissed her, then it wouldn’t have made her think that we could be together. That I liked her. And even though I do, there’s just no way I could put her through that. Being with me I mean. I’m not good, and I never will be. She deserves someone that won’t hurt her, that will treat her right. And I’m none of those things. And I never will. Me and Christy being together, it just wasn’t meant to be.