dear olivia,
i don't even remember falling asleep last night but i felt like waking up that day was worse then the night before. i thought it was just an awful nightmare and id wake up on my couch to you knocking at my door. when i realized it was all real i fell to my knees and instantly felt a wave of nausea. my dad rushed over and kneeled in front of me. i saw his lips moving but nothing came out, all i could hear was a sharp ringing as my eyes stung with tears that threatened to fall. my vision started to blur as i remembered you were gone forever. i lifted my hand and saw its outline shaking harshly. you were never coming back. thats when i started to sob and hyperventilate. i never cry. i have always been able to successfully bottle up my feelings until now. ive never had anyone to cry over. you knew this. you knew everything. you were the only who ever loved me, but youre gone. i don't know if i can handle this.
these next few days were hard and i could barely leave my bed. i haven't eaten much and crying keeps getting me dehydrated. my heart hurts and i can't believe youre funeral is tomorrow.
rest in peace, beautiful.
love,
theo
YOU ARE READING
dear olivia
Romansathis is the journal of a boy who lost the love of his life {short chapters}
