Adalee's POV
It was already the afternoon and all of the FaZe boys were off somewhere going to make a video. So it was just Nick and I in the house, I was sitting on the couch and he was upstairs probably changing since the boys did a video earlier and it got a little messy.
I heard footsteps; it was Nick. "Hey. You ready go for a walk to 7 Eleven?" He asked.
"Sure. Lemme go get mah shoes." I said walking over to the ping pong table and grabbing my white converse.
When I got up, Nick slipped behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist, his head was next to mine. "What're doing?" I said playfully, slightly biting the inside of my lip.
"You know it's just you and me at the house... We could um." Nick slipped both of his hands in my front jean pockets, I slowly pulled his hands out and turned around.
"Let's go get snacks." I said and sidestepped so he was in front.
We went down the porch steps, and started walking on the sidewalk. I jumped on Nick's back so he can carry me all the way over there since I'm an Empress and I'm gonna slay with this hot guy carrying me (👸💁).
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We got out of the convenient store with two bags filled with candy, chips, soda, and beer for Nick. But since he was underaged, we had to use a fake ID.
We were almost at the house, Nick put his arm around me and I felt comforted. I look up to see the New York sky filled with clouds and blue skies mixed with pink and orange.
"It's beautiful." I say still looking up.
"But you're more beautiful." Nick said looking at me.
"That's so corny!" I said and smiled a bit. I was enjoying the walk, it was nice. I felt a cool breeze hit my face and I just shivered, it actually felt good.
"Are you cold? I mean that's a pretty thick sweater but you can borrow my jacket." Nick said, stopping. He's always worried about me no matter what and I appreciate it but sometimes he gets worried TOO much.
*A FLASH TO THE PAST*
*4 years ago*
"Adalee! Stop going too far, you might hurt yourself!" Nick said, he was behind me walking on the trail. There was something different about him since usually he would go off trail also, but I knew something was up.
"Nick, you're 15 and I'm 16! There shouldn't be anything to worry about! We've went off trail a million of times!" I said, stopping and looking behind me to see him STILL walking. There was a month of summer left and I was gonna miss Nick since he will be going back to Ohio. I wanted to spend every single minute with him, his birthday was in a week so that was exciting. I made a collage on a canvas of all of our memories this summer, I like to look back at the good times and just smile.
"Let's just go walk on the trail this time! You almost broke your leg yesterday, I'm worried for you." Nick said, he looked very worried and since I had a huge crush on him... I couldn't say no.
"FIINEE!" I said, still upset and dragged my feet over to Nick. Even though I was older than him, he was still taller than me by three inches.
We walked side by side, sometimes our hands would brush up against each other. I blushed whenever that happened... He's so cute. As we were walking past the bridge, we saw a flock of beautiful birds; I didn't know what kind they were though. "Aren't they amazing?" I ask Nick, I was still astounded and just kept staring and observing them. I felt fingers try to intertwine with mine, I knew what Nick was trying to do and I was happy about it. I glanced to see him still trying to find a way, I sighed and just held hands with him since I was tired of seeing him struggle and I wasn't very patient. The rest of the walk was of course beautiful and we held hands all the way until we got into the car to leave.
*Nick's Birthday*
It was Nick's birthday and I got my collage ready. I looked at myself in the mirror. "You're gonna do okay. You're pretty, just remember that. Nick loves you, and he wouldn't go flirting off with another girl because he has you. Be confident in yourself and never give up." I said to myself in the mirror, I felt tears stream down my face. I shook my head slower and then faster... I couldn't do this.
I lay on my bed and just sobbed there.
"You're a mess. Nick doesn't like you, you're just a mistake. You're ugly and worthless. Stop trying to impress him because he only sees you as a friend. No one likes you." I said to myself as streams of tears pour down my face. I look over to my arm and still see faded away cuts... But they're still there. I just had the urge to grab the razor, "One more time." I thought to myself, my heart was beating a million miles per second. I didn't know if I should do it or not.
I opened my drawer and reached for the razor... But all of a sudden I hear my doorknob turn. I quickly close my drawer and wipe my tears.
"Who is it?" I ask, in the middle of trying to fix my eyes to make it look like I never cried.
"It's me." I heard a soft familiar voice... Nick.
"What do you want?" I ask still trying to fix myself, but I just gave up and sat down on my bed. I see that he's already in the room, he closed the door behind him.
"Please. Please don't." He said shaking his head and sitting down next to me. He lay his head on my shoulder, I felt comforted. "Please. For me. Don't do it again... I thought you were over it. Please don't, you didn't do it right?"
"Shhh. I didn't do it." I whisper, combing my hand through his hair. "I love you~"
The words flew straight out of my mouth.
"I love you too. I don't want anything to happen to you, you understand?" I nod and sniffed a bit, Nick cupped my face and gently stroked his thumb against my cheek.
He leaned in closer; our lips were an inch apart.
Then Bam. My first kiss.
My first kiss was Nick Johnson, the boy who cared for me.
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Okay so this chapter was hard to write in the flashback perspective (I had to stop writing for a moment) because Adalee had some self harm problems and it was very hard because I've had plenty too around two years ago. It was so bad that I would cut every day and at my school I would shut everyone out and not talk to anyone or hang out with anyone. I would cry at every class period. I would be that loner kid that just sits there wearing sweaters everyday. But people didn't know that I had insecurities and I had scars. Let's set aside the sad parts.
As you read these past few chapters; YES! This does look like a Nick Johnson Fanfiction but it's still Lucas. Just remember it's still early in the chapters😉 so keep in mind.
But FR... If you're going through the same thing just remember you're not alone, everyone has had a sad point in their life. And you've survived plenty of days, so if you're going through the same thing please push through. You did it today, you can do it tomorrow, and then the next day, and then everyday.
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