Who Knew

Chapter3.

Want.

Ryan's heart sunk. In front of him was Evan and Jonathan who were carrying their bags. Ryan knew they had changed because so had everyone else around him.

Their looks and their personalities.

Ryan swallowed the lump in his throat and stared at Jonathan who was wearing his blue hoodie and holding his bags. "Sup man long time no see!" Jonathan smiled as he dropped his bags and brought Luke in for a hug. "Who are theses two?" Jonathan looked right at Bryce and Ryan.

"Jon that's Ohm and his boyfriend Bryce."

"Ohm?!" Jonathan nearly shouts in shock. "Heyy, Delirious," Ryan forced a smile at Jon who was staring at him wide eyed in shock. "You actually came?" Evan interrupted with a toothy smile. "Yeah I did." Ohm stood from his seat and locked hands with Evan before bringing him in for a quick hug.

"I didn't think I'd see you again." Jonathan hugs Ryan and they pull away for a moment. "Same here buddy what's been going on?"

"Oh Evan you two will have to get the couches pull out bed." Luke informed, cutting their conversation off. Evan only nodded to Luke as he sat their bags beside the tv while Jonathan hesitantly made his way to sit beside Bryce who was now cuddled back up against Ryan. "Alright so what took you two so long?"

"Too dark to see shit." Jonathan laughed out as he made room for Evan to sit beside him. "Delirious don't know how to drive. We hit like five squirrels on the way." Evan countered, wrapping an arm around Jonathan.

"Wow everyone's getting in a relationship and here I am single." Marcel comments. "Same here Marcel."  Luke chuckled.

Everyone began to talk about the past and how they'd been since then. Bringing up prom night in the process causing Ryan to feel uneasy as his throat went dry. He stood up from his spot and cleared his throat, "I need some air." With that Ryan walked out of the crowded living room which grew silent after he had said that.

No one knew why he was wanting to leave so quickly, no one but Jonathan that is. Bryce looked at Ryan who was exiting the door and made an attempt to get up but Jonathan had beat him to it causing him to lean back in the sofa. "Why'd he get up like that?" Evan asks Bryce who responded with one word, "Cigarettes..?"

Outside Ryan was sitting in the swing smoking the cheap cigarette in his left hand. He sighs and allows the smoke to leave his lips. He only came out because seeing Jonathan tore at his chest and made him hurt, he had thought seeing everyone would do him some good but even seeing his friends made his hole deeper. He had tried so hard to forget about them and never bump into them again because of all the memories.

He was running from the past but ended up stumbling along the way. Now it was eating him alive.

"Ohm?" That voice made his chest tighten and guilt claw at his feet. He felt as if he could be drug down to hell for what he had done to Jonathan years ago. "What's up man?" Ohm forced a smile and tone as he stared up at Jonathan. "You okay man?"

"Yeah I'm fine.."

"How have you been man?"

"Great! What about you?" Ryan watched as Jonathan took a seat beside him and shook his head. "Been better." He answered, honestly. "You look great man. Been hitting the gym?" Ryan snorted and shook his head to give him an answer for that question. "No I got Bryce to thank for how good I look honestly."

"Yeah. You two married?"

"Nah, not yet..how bout you and Evan?"

"Nope." Jonathan leaned back in the swing and let out a shaky breath. Silence had passed the two which was causing the air to become thick. Ryan flicked his cigarette and exhaled. "You know Ohm, I'm really glad you decided to come.."

"Yeah.."

"I mean especially with what happened at prom and after it..I didn't think I'd ever hear from you or see you again because of it. I-"

"Ryan," Bryce interrupted as he stepped out of the house. "Luke wants to know if you're going to join us?"

Ryan couldn't help but smile to Bryce as he pulled himself from the swing an and have a nod. Bryce had just saved his life.

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"I don't know man," Bryce smirks. "You seem to be pretty good looking when you're mad." Ryan nearly choked on his own spit at that comment his boyfriend had just made. He couldn't tell if it was the alcohol talking or just Bryce in general but one thing was for sure, he was getting sexual in many ways. "Bryce please go to bed." Ryan laughs as he hugged his boyfriend close to his chest.

"I don't wanna."

"Too bad."

Bryce gave a whine as he tries to escape his boyfriends hug but came to no success causing him to let out a sigh in annoyance. He ended up giving up the fight of trying to escape and snuggled into Ryan who enjoyed the heat he let off. "Ryan.." Bryce whispered catching his attention. "I love you."

Ryan felt his breathing hitch as he searched for the words. His mouth had became dry and his chest had tightened tighter than it ever had before. He wanted to tell Bryce that he loved him too but the fact that he was questioning whether he did or not kept him from saying that he did.

Now that he had seen Jonathan he began to feel what he had years ago. Want. He wanted Jonathan more than anyone so he could tell him the truth and what he went through after he left but that's not how it worked. Jonathan had Evan while Ryan had Bryce.

Ryan let out a breath when he realized Bryce went back to sleep and let his grip loosen. He closed his eyes in hopes of getting sleep.

A/N~

This chapter is for tomorrow since I am not sure how long I'll stay out. Hope ye enjoyed!